Don't interrupt me when i'm talking crap. :D

911

2010-09-11T23:40:00.008+08:00

Today is september the 11th.

If you look to the right you should see the daisypath counter saying that it's also our 18th month (1 and a half year ) together.

True, it's supposed to be, except that we aren't together anymore.

Haha, old news. We broke up on sept 3rd, so more than a week has passed already.

For those who will worry about me, don't. :)

Life is okay like this, no dramatic emo-ness whatsoever.

Best part is, we're still friends.

We still talk, still care, still keeping touch and all that shit.

Maybe that's what made this break up more tolerable.

I guess this decision is the best for the both of us at the moment.

We're still not ready enough for this relationship.

Maybe as time pass, as we grow and mature, if we were meant to be together,

we'll still wind up with each other. So there's no need to rush things.

I'm not going to continue blogging here, this was like a little space we both shared, a record of our happy times, etc. I'm gonna leave everything as it is, even with the anniversary counter still counting on each day...

Should one day we get back together, i will return to this place. It probably won't be anytime soon, but i still love him and he says he still loves me, so if our love is strong enough to withstand the test of time, this story might continue and actually have a good ending. We shall see...

I'll be hoping with all my heart,

for all our shared dreams to come true. :)

my bad bad habit.

2010-09-01T02:41:00.004+08:00

Went to the temple at bugis to pray for good luck last saturday.

I'll be needing lots and lots of it, 'cos it's last minute mugging as usual.

Exams start on thursday but i'm still damn clueless about everything...

FML YEAH DAEBAK!!!

*flails about insanely*

All the best to me...

awkward.

2010-08-24T04:24:00.008+08:00

Anyone still care about this space?

'Course i don't. :O

I'm too lazy to blog, mostly because life is rather monotonous.

The most recent time i went out was to marina barrage again.

Just gonna leave some pics here.

Honestly i'm contemplating leaving this blog for good.

I no longer rant here because i gave up on the idea of ranting long ago.

Doesn't help my problems one bit.

And i have far too many problems fucking my life up to pen them down one by one.

I'm just gonna chill out and let things happen for themselves.

Exams are next week.

I should prioritise.

When things start to change there's just no turning back.

BRACE YOURSELVES!

2010-08-13T01:54:00.003+08:00

Look at cute hamster baby here. :D

Did i mention, this is the fourth litter already?

Lol 4 generations of hamsters living together is too chaotic really but baby doesn't want to give them away... Oh well very very troublesome.

We only have like 2 cages, we can't put all the males in one and females in the other, 'cos the males kill each other for no reason and our female hams are pretty violent as well. =\

So it's either we let them murder, or breed.

Hmm sometimes wished we just bought one hamster at that time, like ah lim's noob noob.

Fewer problems. Much much fewer. -_-

Past week was okay.

Saturday went amk hub with baby early noon.

They have quite a few nice shops, if only we had the money...

Met classmates and went to Far East Plaza for dinner before heading to Botanic Gardens for the whatever Chopin show we had to watch. Honestly i think it was the worse part of my day.

Maybe i'm just not the type to appreciate classical music. ._.

Someone tell me how i should write the report when we simply left without even getting past the second item. Lol.

Then supper at bugis. More window-shopping with lim. :)

Sunday stayed home, Monday to bugis again to shop with baby.

He needed semi-formal clothes for a wedding dinner...

I kinda like looking for guy clothes.

I kinda wish i was a guy too. xD

"If i was a guy i'd totally wear this with this... blahblahblah"

I think like this all the time.

Baby doesn't like me to coordinate his outfits. :(

He says it's too korean, or too revealing.

REVEALING IS GOOD!

More skin, more chest and more collarbones = sexy.

Guys always don't get it. TSK.

Anyway i satisfied all my cravings on monday because

TUESDAY WAS BRACES DAY.

I got them already, totally could go act in UGLY BETTY, except then the show will be called UGLIER THAN BETTY 'cos i look too scary.

T-T I'm damn self-conscious now, hope i get over it soon.

The saddest thing about now isn't the looks part though,

it's that MAH TEETH FUCKIN HURTS AND I CAN'T EAT ANYTHING NICE WITHOUT FEELING LIKE ALL MY TEETH IS GONNA TEAR OFF FROM MY GUMS.

wtshit right.

I'm craving and craving for all sorts of food now, and i just realised Wendy's just opened yesterday at yishun.

Lucky me, i can't go try it in my current state. -_-

Can't they freakin' open a day earlier goddamnit!!! ASDFGHJKL;

If i don't look any prettier with my teeth straightened out 3 years later i'll go kill myself, seriously. /rant

Hope it hurts lesser soon, and ANYONE GOT LOBANG?

I need a damn job i'm up to my ass in debts. ;(

hi. :)

2010-08-07T01:52:00.002+08:00

oh yeah yog break starts today! \m/

can't remember a single shit about the past week.

weekends went to sing k on both saturday AND sunday 'cos it's so cheap at marsiling cc.
-_- i'm gonna develop a phobia for mics soon.

weekdays is just school and home, and meeting baby when he's free.
oh yeah i did my lpa performance already!
Sang "we will get there" from Stefanie Sun as advanced celebration for national day.
Haha. Only had Moses on guitar as accompaniment, so scary for me.
I'm too used to loud music from the band while i sing.
To be honest it gives me a sense of security that even if i go out of tune etc, at least it wouldn't be too obvious with all that noise. LOL.

My confidence has always been a pretense. :)
Haha i actually hate how i sound most of the time.
So mediocre.

Anyway a classmate came and asked to take a photo with me after the performance!
xD Cute right. Totally made me feel better about myself (for that day).
Thanks for the kind compliments!~

On a random note, isn't this so cute? :D
That's how cereal is kept at baby's house.
How pretty...

So these days i'm rather hooked on tumblr.
Had to struggle to not reblog too many posts a day or i'd spam my followers' dashboard too much.
Honestly life did get better after having tumblr, i feel more inspired and my heart felt less tied down with stuffs that shouldn't have mattered.

Hmm shinee won again for music bank this week!
So happy, but honestly taemin no longer seem himself...
Previously during ringdingdong promotions or even much earlier, he was always smiling. :(
I'd rather he lose all that hotness and just come back as that cheerful guy we all love.
Either he's all grown up now or he's too stressed out by lucifer.
Bitches who kept yelping about how sexy he is should be ashamed; how on earth can they be so blind to the fact that he isn't really happy. tsk.

Aww well i probably sound like those crazy fangirls, but taemin has always been one of my kpop favs of course i'd be affected by the change. ~_~
ok i'll just end here. Tonight is MBLAQ night, so many shows subbed already. Fuckyeah!

dried.

2010-07-31T01:41:00.006+08:00

Hmm i made this recently and will be more active there from now on, but i'm not abandoning this blog yet... GOGO.
http://little-old-lady.tumblr.com/

Life's been a real bore. Last few weeks of school is killing me with all the tests and practicals.
Flunk-time.

Finally caught Despicable Me last Saturday.
What's so cute about Agnes? I think Gru is much much cuter.

Oh yeah spilt ice lemon tea in my bag that day and my laptop had a good swim.
But luckily it's working fine, though ants are beginning to show more love for it. -_-

Everything else is pretty much the same... Routine routine routine.
Oh yeah recording on Wednesday was horrid. Can't believe i wrote such a tough melody line that i cannot even handle. Stupid right. Wtfish.

Anyway i put the metal band(?) thingy at the back of the teeth ready. :)
Last step before i get the full set of braces.
It's supposed to hurt but i've become so accustomed to it.
By now i should have lost weight but no, i'm eating so well i gained 1 kg.
Screw it.

Visited CC on Wednesday after morning class. Took lecturer's car to her house... Really sad that i had to leave early as i had afternoon lessons. The lecturers had to leave also to send me back to school... Felt quite bad.
Waliao why cannot pon la. Friends are definitely more in important than maths what. :(
CC get well soon!!

Anyway,
these days i feel like some things changed. I wonder if there's a problem with me or that i'm just too sensitive. Whatever it is, i really hate it. I can't put a name to this feeling - perhaps like how kwonnie described ga-in, our feelings "dried up"? =\

Or maybe, the so-called honeymoon period has finally came to an end...
No idea but i don't think anything good is gonna come out of us if this hollowness doesn't get filled soon. I'm losing grip.

If we spent some time away from each other,
will absence make the heart grow fonder?

short one...

2010-07-23T14:01:00.002+08:00

the super popular contortionist. :)

Voyage de la vie on friday. Best thing i've ever seen...
You wanna see real talent, that's real talent for you.
Intriguing and breath-taking.
Never expected this much from a theatrical circus, totally worth the money~

Nothing significant on the weekends except for project on Sunday...

Recording for our second original on Wednesday noon.
Damn stressful but i guess the result was a quite good.

Interview at Woody pub on Thursday. Pretty place, but not sure if i'll be working there during the holidays 'cos of the timing and all. :(
Baby fell sick on thursday night.
Take care k~ *hugs*

Meeting him again later and tomorrow,

DESPICABLE ME!

Like finally. :DDD
I waited till the cows came home... Haha.

actually it's quite funny...

2010-07-15T15:30:00.006+08:00

Once again it's the famous 3hour break that takes place every Thursday.

Once again i'm here to blog about random things that don't matter.
Lol i went to get my xray on the past weekend.

Have a look at my unappealing teeth! :D
Hmm it was a very speedy procedure, these days technology is really dope. (just learnt the meaning of this word today so shall apply it like anyhow. Haha.)

Anyway did visiting with Baby at General Hospital on Saturday and GOD it's like the most confusing place to end up in.
We couldn't find our way to the right block and ward 'cos their signboard's arrows pointed in like all directions wtf.
Got lost for 45min.
Honestly if someone had this friend/family at the brink of death in the hospital, by the time he reach the correct ward the person would have already passed on. Still got to register personal details, what is this. You think the dying person will wait meh.

GOD: "Okay lah i give you a few more minutes, your relative queuing to check IC downstairs. Long queue ah today."

-_-

Sot plug.

On Monday met ah lim super early in the morning to visit the dentist.
Luckily no hidden tooth, so i can go straight into putting my separators.
Honestly on the first day it was totally no kick. I still can eat my zhajiangmian happily.
But second day morning the soreness woke me up. Sucks balls man.
So i'm really on a baby food diet now but weight's still not showing signs of dropping though...
=\

Yesterday went for studio recording after school.
Was super stressed but it got better towards the end i guess.
Boss and brat were quite patient.

"Must sing sexier! Whisper the part, don't need sing until so fierce!"

LOLWTF someone like me u think i know how to be sexy. xD
Awkward. Lucky they let me off in the end...
Oh and they scared me like hell with the chipmunk voice.
I hate it seriously but shan't elaborate. Almost cried sial.

But overall it was a good experience la.
Think boss was rather lenient with me that's why he said the recording was pretty decent. :)

At night baby booked out so we went to J8 for dinner.
Unfortunately the night didn't end well, but ok la.
When i woke up this morning it came across as quite funny.
Imagine the scenario lor, i was running about as though i saw a cockroach.
Like stupid huh. But bo bian, human instinct...

Lets just say you run into someone you wish was dead, what would you do?
To save trouble you'd avoid right?
But i think my measure was a bit too drastic and comical la.
LOL fuck. I'm stupid ma, brain not functioning properly cannot is it...

At least i acknowledge my bad points okay. :)
At least i'm someone with morals, i have a sense of guilt and shame, i will feel sorry and regret for my mistakes.
Stupid i may be, but at least i still got my conscience.
I can't look or talk to someone knowing i did him/her wrong, i'm not as good at pretending. Apparently others don't seem to have a problem with that, so good for you, i'll try to hide my sympathy.

Don't know la, how come some people can just listen to one side of the story and think they know enough? Humans can be trusted one meh. Sad you know, to be the only one in the dark. Don't know whether or not it's naivety, or plain ignorance, but aiya, happy jiu hao. Who am i to say anything, i was like this then as well. Lol thinking too highly of ourselves is not good la, nobody actually needs us in their life. Especially people who don't even know what he/she wants exactly, 1 is never enough.

Losing track of what i'm saying la, whatever, on that other side of the story i'm probably the little kid who's not acting her age anyway so you won't ever get close to seeing the truth. By the way fuck it, who's to decide how exactly a person should behave at what age. I can do whatever i like regardless of age what, why restrict myself. :) I'm still young la, i make mistakes (particularly in judgement), i lie and get lied to, all that innocent childish shit. So what and why not? Seems like the mature grown-ups are also experiencing the same things as well. Ah wait, they don't know that yet... Better off not knowing?

Haha it's starting to amuse me the more i type. So hard to remain subtle. I always thought i was the bad guy and all, but i've thought through it again and realised i'm also a victim myself. I wonder how many more people were or would be victimised in future. (You got see leopards ever change their spots?) Oh well, at least i'm not the oblivious one la hor. Considered lucky already.

Baby sorry for running off. Thanks for being so understanding. Next time i won't ever do it again 'cos i now know there's no reason for me to. I can see clearer now. :)

artichoke.

2010-07-09T13:31:00.005+08:00

Mood's been pretty lousy.
I must be the luckiest human on Earth.
'Cause it seems like karma is determined to get me.

Thanks i already knew my mistakes, now stop coming around to constantly remind me of them.

Can't even breathe properly these days...
It's feels like the air keeps getting thinner and i get so choked up all the time.

FUCK THIS DRAMA.

Anyway I'm stuck with another 1 hour of break before lesson.
Baby will be booking out tonight, can't wait to see him.
He's the only person who can keep my mind off all the shit from school.
I MISS YOU LA WANNA SEE YOU QUICK! :(

This past week was rather packed.

Weekends went shopping at toa payoh, we found this shop that sells pretty pretty clothes. :D
Baby bought me a denim dress and i love it like mad.
Gonna wear it tomorrow i think~
Thanks so much dear!

Monday had my first consultation for braces.
LOL doctor said i won't need to pluck teeth at all!
Super happy. But i still need to do xray tomorrow in case there's something stuck in my gums that will require a mini-op.
Doctor says the gap between my teeth is too big maybe got teeth stuck inside my gums.
Like wtf luh if i'm really that suay i'd rather forgo the whole braces thing.
-_- Operating on my gums sounds totally crazy can.

At night went shopping with ah lim at Far east.
Retail therapy is good~
Bought shorts that are a size smaller to motivate myself to lose that last few kgs.
My weight hasn't been dropping for a long long time...
Come on just 3 more kgs to go! :\

Wednesday went with the band to joo chiat for recording.
Wtf luh the studio damn professional and chio.
If i had to choose a place to die at i wouldn't mind dying there. Lol.
The instruments are well done, so i'm totally stressed about my vocal recording next week.
*freaking out*

When baby booked out that night we went to Plaza Sing to shop around.
Oh yeah, and satisfied my craving for Mos Burger too, before the braces stuff comes in and my fasting have to commence.
Screw baby-food diet. :(
Not looking forward to it but maybe i can lose that few stubborn kilos eh.

Oh well nothing else happened i guess.
After all half the time i'm stuck in school, which has somehow begun to suck more than ever...
Can't imagine how it'd be like without ah lim keeping me company.
My dear girl, ah ma love you, man!

One last suay thing to mention:
My internet thumbdrive thingy burnt out last week and till now i haven't gotten another one from m1.
Don't asked me how i survived to this day without internet at home 'cos i don't know either.
-_-

BOMA (aka bored off my ass)

2010-07-01T12:23:00.002+08:00

It's a beautiful Thursday, the rain is pouring, perfect time to be sleeping at home...
BUT i'm stuck in school with completely nothing to do for 3 whole hours.
HURRAY!

-_- Ok laa i do have some assignments to do, but i'm procrastinating luh.
Damn it i seriously hate super long breaks. The moron who arranged my timetable go screw yourself please, thank you.

Anyway school reopened and we're busy like banglah 'cos all the assignments meant to be completed in the holidays are left undone, and they are all due this 2 weeks. Swee.

Nothing special happened this past weekend, living life as simple as we can due to the extreme lack of moolah. Baby and i stayed home the whole time :( Beggars can't be choosers, losers can't complain.

BUT OH YEAH i do have something i want to complain about.

Just a few days ago i laughed at Germ 'cos she said a mad man sat next to her in the bus and she was terrified.

Got my karma today. A mad man sat next to me on 852 while i was on my way to school. FUCK.
He kept talking to himself and kept counting with his fingers about dunno what thing.
Then keep turning to look at me some more. Maybe he's trying to count the number of blackheads on my nose. =\
What the hell i was stuck in the inner seat, if not i confirm change place.

What do you mean by just say excuse me and move out? If he took offense then stab me with a knife how.

I know sitting next to him also got high chance of getting stabbed if he really did bring along a knife la... -_- But if i don't aggravate him i'll probably have higher chance of survival right.

Luckily he alighted at the same stop as me, if not i really have no guts to ask him to move so i can get out of my seat. I'm still too young to die man.

I know i'm stereotyping a bit too much here. But ever heard of the saying, mad people are worse than ghosts. :O If they ki siao and just kill you for no reason that's just plain suay. And because of their condition they won't be charged as strictly lor. See, we sane people will constantly be at a losing end.

Which is why i think the mental hospital should have this team of people to catch all the mad people on the loose. So like whenever we encounter some mentally disturbed human we can call their hotline then wait to be rescued. Good right. Safer society.

Honestly i don't know why they let all these people roam around. I know medications help, but how can you trust that they will remember their medicine all the time. Even normal people forget stuff once in a while. -_-

WHY endanger our sad sad lives. Family members do your part and keep them away from the streets la. Traumatizing you know. Tsk.

Completely starved here. I need food. Bye.

Overdue.

2010-06-19T01:04:00.020+08:00

Oh yea i remember saying i'd blog on friday...
I LIED! :D What's new?
If you fell for it then you probably don't know me well enough.
Being overdue is totally my style~

Anyway here are pics from the last weekend...
I'm too lazy to blog much, so just look at the photos.
Have some pity ok, i'm still recovering. -_-
Fell sick yesterday lor.

Bowling with Aunt, Cousins and Germ on Friday.

Cute bowling shoes!
But i wear for shiok only la, didn't bowl AT ALL 'cos i didn't want to look like a loser...
Too many pros there already, very intimidating you know. T-T

Cousin bowling.

Cousin teaching Germ how to bowl. We're both noobs la but at least she tries.
So i'm noobier than her now, but who cares. Life goes on whether or not i know how to bowl. HAHA.

Caught on camera for stoning throughout the session. Haha.
Duh what else can i do besides staring at the tv with the scores...

*Trying to act glam after noticing camera*

Germ bowling. I know it looks pretty cool here but 85% percent of the time her ball kena the drain. And whenever it went straight it took it's own sweet time to roll to the pins, i think my neighbour's baby also can crawl faster. xD

*Intruding in other people's zi lian*

After that Aunt treat us to Manhatten fish market! :D
Our first time eating there~

Germ waiting for her food...

She also act glam only. Actually she was super impatient. xD

Me pretending to be some patient angel. Muahahaha.

ME FOODZ!
Lol the fish was super nice, no joke. :D

Tadah!

Here's a photo with aunt!
Many thanks to her for taking us out. :)

Saturday at Kobayashi Hangul.
Super long time since i last had that, was glad that baby decided to go eat it with me even though he hates Japanese/ Korean food.
*hearts him for being so nice* (happens only once in a while lor.) LOL.

Nice right?
My recommendations never go wrong! :D

*being a kaypoh when my food was being served* xD

SPICY TOFU SOUP WITH CHICKEN.
I LOVE spicy tofu soup la, the one at sembawang shopping center still tastes better but this is good too. :)

Baby trying the soup with a wierd expression 'cos he can't take spicy stuff. Hoho.

At night was BBQ at xiu's house area to celebrate xiu's bday... :)
Baby Bryan is so cute. Hehe.
And the food was nice that night 'cos xiu and i did a great job marinating.
*Steals credit though i didn't do much* xD

No pics of the bbq 'cos i was too busy looking like and being an ah soh.

Treating Baby to Seoul Garden for advanced birthday celebration on Sunday!

We're totally carnivorous. :D

sizzle sizzle~

Baby engrossed in cooking. :)

Happy 'cos the last time i ate Seoul Garden was like 3 or 4 years ago~
(The picture looks so ugly. Baby's got awful photography skills. -_- LOL.)

One more pic of the busy cook.

Didn't take much photos towards the end 'cos we were too busy eating and cooking and walking about.
Though it was pretty ex we ate continuously for almost 2 hours, so rather worth it~

THATS ALL!
Happy birthday to all June babies.
Xiu, Baby and Amanda...

Babe i still remember so if you do read my blog, just wanna let you know i miss you.
Hope you're doing well. :)

I pity your eyes.

2010-06-17T23:20:00.008+08:00

Haha so yesterday i uploaded pics of my no make-up face onto facebook and people were like telling me i look so different... ;(

If you haven't seen from my profile, here are the photos again!
Sorry but i'm actually having fun torturing your eyes. xD
In fact i'm getting quite addicted to taking photos without make up now, since i already spoilt my own xing xiang i've got nothing much to hide anymore...
Now i don't have to wait until i'm all dressed-up to take photos, i can take as and when i feel like it. Muahahaha~

That aside, i really love good hair days but they always happen when i'm not going out. -_-
See the photos on top? My hair auto-wavy. *love*
Then this one below is auto-straight.
Which one better? :)

Aiya but my hair actually not much hope one... No matter how nice at the end of the day will still end up looking like grass.

And I'm too lazy to work on it also. Siao, make-up already take one hour still must style hair, then i might as well don't need sleep just stay up whole night to prepare for going out.
Hallo it's not like singapore streets full of shinee/superjunior/mblaq - lookalikes anyway, who cares what everyone thinks. Chey! -_-

Oh yea suddenly thought of this, those guys who feel super good about themselves 'cos they got chio gf or ex or whatever and look down on other girls, don't be so happy la. Only got a few reasons:

1st, deep down the girl actually like the Yusof Bin Ishak on your dollar notes better than you.

2nd, she's just making do with you 'cos she have no choice she's stuck in singapore, just wait till some hot mixed blood hits on her and you'll see~

3rd, congratulations you've found a dimwit that god took pity of so decided to make her pretty to make up for the fact that she's stupid. Of course you wouldn't mind, you're probably stupider than her anyway. :O

LOL ok ignore me but i hate guys who need girls to massage their fucking ego 'cos everyone knows they're just losers on their own. Chee hong people are really just sad and pitiful, lonely souls (don't say you've got guy friends la 'cos if they are really your friends you wouldn't try so hard to look "cool" to them, by flaunting your girl collection around), or their brains simply don't work well enough to control their dicks. Aww. :(

AND BACK TO TOPIC one more photo this time in my usual camwhoring position so it's easier to make comparision. Haha. Ok lor i still have eyes what.
Those pictures on top my eyes looks much much smaller because i was looking downwards la. :\
*coughdefensivecough*

Anyway, as though this post hasn't frightened you enough, here's one final unglam photo.

LOL. Ok, abrupt end here so you can go look at the scenery now before you lose your sense of sight.
Don't worry i'll blog again tomorrow to push this post down so you won't have to see all the hideousness everytime you come by. Hahaha.

Go fly kite!

2010-06-15T02:35:00.014+08:00

Last Sunday was our first time going to Marina Barrage (baby and i) ~
It was really a pretty place so i took many photos.
Spamming them all here, so too bad if you have a slow and lag computer.
Hahaha. There's more lor, at facebook...
If your middle-name is kaypoh, feel free to go stalk. Lol.

Anyway the reason for going there is 'cos "the gang" was holding a birthday celebration for pinky.
Tadah group photo! :)
Haha there's always loads of laughter with you guys around~

Anyway when baby and i was trying to locate the place, the weather was sweltering hot.
When we arrived we probably looked like we swam there from across the sea. -_-
However after the cake-cutting the sky began to darken and the wind started to blow violently.
Lol, don't believe go see how our hair fly from the photo on top.

So ominous right the rain clouds.
Like slowing taking over the sky...

Thankfully the storm didn't last forever.
Once it stopped baby and i went out of the barrage and took photos by the sea~

On the bridge which extends out to the sea...
Baby looks so cute when he smiles like this. *love* ^^

After that, kite-flying time!
There were many damn cool kites lor.

Here's one of them, opera-face.
Xiu will like it. Haha. Fierce.

Ok so in comparison, look at the one baby bought:

HAHA. Lame-looking right? Donald duck kite. xD
But its sorta cute in the funny kind of way la. LOL. Plus it's cheap~

At least it flies well. :)
Baby seemed rather happy with it so that's all that matters la.
This fella was so excited while flying the kite that he didn't even stop smiling for one second. xD

Sudden change of topic:

Awkward band photo taken for competition. xD
We took it by the busy roadside; damn anyhow lor so cannot expect much...
Haha. Anyway free go take a look at our Black Canary video for the comp, and the random trailer done by Eden. http://www.youtube.com/user/ushinawa

...Shame on you if you ended up staring at my tummy. -_-
Constipation la, cannot ah. Who knew it'd look so obvious. *annoyed*
I'm really still working on getting those abs ok. Lol.
Pay more attention to the music!

Can't wait for the next weekend.
Super a lot of things going on.
Xiu and baby's birthday celeb! :DDD

Oh yeah girl whats so "eww" if someone else's boyfriend loses your phone number? :)
I mean, it can't get any more disgusting than your failed double eyelid surgery right.
OOPS. Haha. So stop msging my guy for nothing la. Laughing or insulting the unfortunate, very sinful one you know. I still want to go to heaven. :0

long time no see.

2010-06-09T23:46:00.004+08:00

Hallo.
Hao jiu bu jian.

I'm finally back from hiatus 'cos common tests ended already.
Muahahaha.
Thanks for everyone who helped me with my work (especially ern and serene) !
Pleased much.
Think i might actually be able to pass~

For all those still mugging, lotsa luck!
JIAYOU. :)

Anyway ns finally returned my baby to me for one week before he got posted to paya lebar airbase.
Just when i thought he can stay out 8-5 everyday from now onwards,
NO, starting from next week, stay-in for at least another one month plus.
WTF right.
Thanks god now i'm more assured that you exist.
F the life you supposedly gave me... -_-

So i'll probably become an emo kid this holidays.
Anybody, please ask me out whenever.
I need to at least have a life so 50 years down the road i have stories to tell my grandchildren.
Thanks. xD

CRAVING Japanese food and Seoul Garden. *_*
But seriously eating too much lately...
Gotta resume my ab exercises!

AND I NEED MONEY LA DAMN IT.
Baby's birthday coming. T-T

fuckcough!

2010-05-28T02:45:00.008+08:00

LOL pardon the lousy word play. (fuckcough... fuckoff, geddit?)
Haven't been blogging much 'cos i've reverted back to my no-life lifestyle ever since baby kena confinement. -_-
But he'll be out on Sunday like FINALLY, so i can't wait. Relatively excited mood now. :D

Anyway some things to mention.
Last week Black Canary joined a song composing competition held at Far East Plaza and we freaking WON for Best Original Songs.
WTFcoolshitz.
Totally happy. Prize money of $200.
Our hardwork paid-off!
Thanks to everyone who gave us LOVE and showed interest~

We spent about 130bucks celebrating our win at HotPot Culture today.
Nice. Had great fun with the silly people. xD
They were like eating raw eggs and stealing Ice Lemon Tea (drinks no free flow lor) and imitating their friends, opera singers, gays, lao ah peks, etc.
Crappyyyyyyyyyy ttm~

Other than that i practically cooped myself up at home.
Besides school the only other times i stepped out was for Thai Express (Mum's treat 'cos she got her payyy. ^^) and Potato Farmland (yet again). Hehe.
Btw i finally completed my freaking WISP essay.
*proud*
There is really no limit to my talk-cock ability man, managed to fulfil the requirement of 1000 words minimum.
Though it was late by 2days but better than nothing hor, mai hiam.
Haha.

Anyway I'm crazy about muscles now!
Have been watching MBLAQ's idol army show and i can't stop drooling at joon's abs.
I also sorta like how abs look on girls too - BEG's JeA and Goddess Hyori.
SO, sheena became extra hardworking and began working out everyday! :)
But it's not exactly working out laa, i just did whatever ab-exercise joon demonstrated, 100 buddha-claps (taught by baby), some stretching, and thats about it.
Whatever, my favourite phrase of all times again,
"better than nothing hor."

Muahahaha.

2moredaystoSUNDAY!!!!!

fragility.

2010-05-18T13:41:00.003+08:00

Pics from the past week...
Baby being silly, and me looking constipated. -_-
NEHmind.

Anyway the weekend was spent in kampong.
The only thing i remember doing was Partyworld at Causeway's Civic.
Lol what the hell is a nebo card huh it makes everything so much cheaper.
I also want leh.
Weekends sing k $18 bucks per person only.

To tell the truth we, the formidable couple, managed to quarrel 3 times within the short span of baby's book-out.
It actually told me one thing, that our relationship is so fragile anything could break it.
And i know if it were to break it'd be my fault.
I pissed baby off 2 times till he completely ignored me, 'cos he did not believe in platonic friends...
It's so stressful for both sides 'cos i know he's feeling insecure and he can't trust me 'as in the past as i did so-called go "overboard"...
And i honestly do not want to offend any of my friends too, i mean why go through all the trouble just cuz we both have no confidence in our relationship?

Confusing right.
Yay no angst for this month's PMS, and i end up depressed instead.

Then the last quarrel was my turn with insecurities...
Same fucked up issue.
It does make me wonder when it'll ever come to an end.

And i think i do know how to put a stop to this nonsense.
Except that it's gonna largely depend on baby's help.

However seems like he'd rather run away then face me with the truth...
For the first time he left me to cry alone for his mistake.
And that made me think.

We've had fun while it lasted but how long are we gonna pretend and overlook our problems.
Truth is there is no mutual trust 'cos we've both done enough rubbish to eachother...
Screw this shit but i'm so tired and i'm sure he is too.

ninja traits.

2010-05-13T10:41:00.004+08:00

Lesson is sooooooooooooooooo boringgg. -_-

Anyway this week passed rather fast for me.
Thanks to friends who kept me company. :)

Tuesday to Island Creamery with class.
Finally had time to join them in their outing.
Missed it for the past 2 years lor...
Strawberry sorbet rocks. ^^
And happy birthday May babies!

Wednesday with xiu shopping for presents.
LOL i think if not for her i'll never ever step into GUCCI lor.
*sad*
Haha. But there's a nice belt there. $400plus.
Cui. Even when i go out work will i ever be rich enough? -_-

Anyway i surprised myself with my supernatural abilities to control my temper this month.
By right its PMS period and i should be blowing up at people or random stuff.
However i'm doing a pretty good job up till now. =\

Honestly i don't know if it's good to be forgiving though.
What happened once will happen again.
Then sooner or later, the whole world will be crawling all over my head like stupid lice.
Maybe i should stop giving face.
Doesn't matter whose friend u are, if i don't think u are my friend i'm not going to give a damn.
Poke fun at me again lor i confirm won't laugh it off now.
Like i said on fb, if you wan joke, find the right person, or at least make it funny la.
Kao.

I'm not angry or what la but i believe i have to make my stand clear.
I'm not those that will say "aiyo euu so bad lehx say miies..." then give u a act cute/kelian face.
Siao. Those stuff that u say to xiao lians don't say to me can.
They may like your attention but sorry i don't even care about your miserable existence.

I'm becoming more and more withdrawn now.
Maybe i should be more accepting of other people including strange ones... -_-
Or am i the one that is strange?

Crapp la. I don't know how exactly to behave so people will start saying nice things to me.
I don't remember being mean to anyone lor.
What are those other girls out there doing ah, until everyone treat them like goddess?
Is it because they are supposedly pretty in the eyes of dudes with raging hormones...
Then should i make out with the female species and spam fb with pics of that?
Should i dress in a bikini and spam fb with pics of that too?
Should i ask my guy friends to give me piggy backs?
Like that then people will treat me better?

Might as well call me go die.
Nabeh.

14th... (2010may11)

2010-05-11T13:21:00.000+08:00

Happy 14months baby. ^^
Lol on this fateful day he will be stuck in camp doing guard duty from 3 oclock noon to 6am the next day...
All because he don't know how to cut his nails properly. -_-

So i won't be able to hear from him while he receives his punishment.
Grr. Oh well i got this sticky suspicion that he doesn't even know what date it is today anyway. ;(

The weekends was rather packed 'cos i've only got like less than 2 days with baby.

Friday i waited a good 1 and a half hours for him while he happily got himself lost at Boon Lay's industrial park, after being released from Singapore Discovery Centre.
Long story. I wanted to get angry with him but couldn't 'cos he looked silly with his huge bag and i really missed him too much to hide my happiness when i finally got to see him... xD
Went to his house for him to bathe and change, had KFC for dinner then back to my house where he was forced to take herbal tea by mum. Haha.

Saturday...
Actually had so much plans but we had so little time.
In the end we ended up at Cathay again ('cos its the best cinema ever) to watch IP MAN2. Guess what? We reached at 2 and we only managed to get tix for the 7pm show.

So we went to have lunch. Cathay's basement have got the best food man. Pity it's so hidden away. Loved their taiwanese snacks (oyster meesua, fried chicken cutlet) and japanese snacks (teriyaki gyoza!). Damn i'm hungry now but it's too late at night to allow any consumption of food. :( dieting is hard...

Anyway, talking about the movie, ITS LIKE DAEBAKKKKKKK. I loved it. Totally weeped when Sammo Hung died in the show. WTF he's like my favourite person in the whole show how can he die, fuck that twister thing. Twister is simi, i only know twisties leh, that proud hairy fag hao lian what. Make me pissed only. -_- Sammo Hung is like the cutest man ever, seriously wonder if he has a fan club so i could join. Love it that he's so round but he's so cool when it comes to kungfu.
*loves*
Actually i'd love Ip Man as much if he twisted Twister's head off, but he's too much of a nice man.
I'm so not into the whole heroes-should-be-nice thing, but dang he looks good with his wing chun too~

I'm such a rabid fangirl for martial arts films. :D

After the show Baby and i walked back from cathay to Orchard Central to explore 'cos we had some time. Actually the place proved to be rather interesting but definitely not a mall everybody would flock to shop at, i don't know why... I think it's overall feel is just too... "over". LOL. Oh yar and if anyone was curious about their roof garden, don't be. It's a freaking fraud. Disappointed to the max.

OH and my feet was hurting that day due to my new heels. I practically walked around the entire shopping centre barefooted. At one point Baby even had to piggy back me. Haha. UNGLAM.

Sunday, lunch with Baby's family (mother's day celeb) then he had to book in ler. =(
I went for jamming then home after that...

TAHAN! Few more weeks to his POC!

Anyway i finally satisfied my craving for custard chicken rice. XD Went to ahlim's house after school and had milkk cafe deliver dinner to our doorstep. Nice. I feel like i could eat another pack now. *starved*
Hmm at about 7 decided to walk home from lim's house. Lim was super nice and insisted on walking me back to yishun then we separate at a junction where she'd walk to SembShopping to take the freeder bus home. Gan dong lor. Thanks babe u super nice. Anyway from ah lim's house to my house it took about 1 hour, the whole trip.
Not bad. Good way to digest all that food i've been eating lately. :)

can't wait!

2010-05-07T13:55:00.002+08:00

In a few hours can get to see baby. ^^

So sad lor didn't get to hear from him at all for a couple of days 'cos of his field camp.
Miss him.

Can't wait! 5 more hours to go~~

talk cock sing song.

2010-05-06T12:37:00.007+08:00

Lately there's this piece of news that a 13yr old was raped because she wore a sex band.
What kind of crap is that?!
No logic can.

Wear sex band means want sex?
Then wear tie means want to be tied up la?
Wear slippers means wants to slip and fall la?
Guys wear boxers means want to get boxed la?

Like that bu shi everywhere riot. Siao.

Honestly i think stupid people got this talent of pushing the blame to others every time they make a mistake.

You want have sex say la, blame the person with the sex band for what.

I've heard people say that girls who dress with little cloth on their bodies deserved to be raped or molested.
So now what, 2010 already people still can't dress in the way they like?
Or they'd rather we all behave like those islamic women in rundown countries.
Wrap the whole body up until left only the eyes?

Don't tell me dress like that won't get raped lor, there are still such cases in those countries.
There is no reason why we should mummify ourselves just because some guys can't keep their dicks in their pants.

Really don't make sense.

Got so poor not.
If you are so sexually deprived 'cos nobody in the right mind wants so suck on your member, use money laa.
Hookers every country also have.
You want to act out your whatever fantasies they also will work with you one ma.

No money?
Watch porn and jerk off lor.
Whichever god you pray to give u imagination for what.
Who ask u to laze around until no girls have any interest in you and you can't even afford to buy yourself some sex.

Then those people who require multiple sex partners,
want to have millions of flings and thousands of gfs,
shame on you la.
Desperate meh.
Honestly u so hungry for different pussies,
go stand at changi be duck lor.
Got money earn some more.
Such jobs not only for china men, can really consider.
See, i help you see the light.
Job jiu shi must do what you enjoy ma.
Like that also must wait for people tell you.

Thats why i can't help to love women more than men. =_=
Give their body one extra extension called the penis and blood can no longer circulate to their brains, 'cos all rush there don't know for what...
Kao eh.

[I'm not gonna say no offense to anyone 'cos this is meant to offend. If you feel pissed by my words, this post is obviously referring and directed to people like you. :) ]

Replay...

2010-05-04T00:07:00.005+08:00

Baby's failed attempt when i forced him to zi lian with my phone. xD

Had a splendid weekend with baby around~
Finally got my life back, haha.

Wednesday went to fetch him from Pasir Ris.
He's looking sexier now, gained some weight and muscles. xD
From 50 to 54 kg lor! *proud*
After that had Astons for dinner at the kopitiam near his house...

Thursday, due to my fierce-kah em3a lecturer,
was stuck at school till 6.
Came back to yishun and shared kfc buddy meal with baby.
Muahaha such a good deal, damn cheap.
After that baby went crazy and splurged his money on a dress for me.
Thank you i'm so happy~ T.T

Friday, self-declared labour day holiday and went to baby's house to sleep.
At night met his usual friends for dinner.

Saturday, wanted to catch IP MAN 2.
Reached cathay at noon 12+ after lunch at MOS.
BUT!
ALL SHOWS LEFT WITH FRONT ROW TICKETS, ALL THE WAY UNTIL 11PM AT NIGHT.
Kao, got so kiasu ma, singaporeans. xD
Haha i know laa. Because martial arts is like the coolest thing ever~~~ *hearts*
Anyway, caught The Bounty Hunter in the end.
Quite funny, I LOVE LOVE LOVE ANISTON'S HAIR TTM.
After that nothing much.
I really really enjoyed myself that day, having Baby all to myself the whole time...
(Oh and I dio spot by teacher from school. =\ Wonder where he saw me.)

Sunday, went over to Baby's house.
Helped a bit with the packing as he gets ready to book in.
Shucks time really flies when you're happy. -_-
After he left i went to Izu's house to meet the rest of the band.
A nice dinner was prepared, thanks babe. Loved the salmon. :D
After that began recording for our band's original.
Hope it'll all turn out well~

Thats all for now...
Baby will be in field camp for three days.
Praying that all goes smoothly and safely~ :)

Day 16 ; last day!

2010-04-27T23:15:00.003+08:00

I'm too excited to blog much.
School, Grandma's house, home.

FINALLY BABY WILL BE BACK IN 19HOURS.
can't wait can't wait.

I love you baby! :DDD

*gets ready for kiss spam*

Day 15 ; Tantrum

2010-04-26T23:29:00.003+08:00

Nothing much to say. Feeling damn bad now.

Met ahlim go west mall meet ah heng. Wait for him to recontract phone, then had MOSburg for lunch.
Cabbed to school. WISP is nice as usual. Stereotypes, Prejudice, Discrimination. Such a familiar topic to me. Shan't elaborate.

Media and Sports put me to sleep in a matter of seconds.
'Cos i seriously don't give a shit about soccer etc, so how the media is making use of that to make a haul IS TOTALLY NO BUSINESS OF MINE.
The money also not going into my pocket why should i be interested...

But i need to 'cos it's my IS.
nb.

Anyway i came home straight after school. Too tired.
Slept a 4 the night before. Lol blame Shinee.

Facing a problem here.
Baby's book out time is 7plus on Wednesday.
My lessons end at 12.
I thought he would be out earlier that that, so i made arrangements to meet Mindy to pass time before going to pick him up.
Mindy only has 2 or 3 hours to spare.
So what am i gonna do in the remaining time?
I don't have enough time to go home and come out again.
Super waste money also.
Damn ma fan sia i don't know what to do.
Threw a tantrum when i shouldn't have...

Sorry.
Let me sort things out.

Day 14 ; I called you butterfly!

2010-04-25T23:30:00.002+08:00

haha!

Yaa never underestimate the wrath of women. xD

Anyway nothing much happened.
Accompanied Germ to northpoint to pass stuff to her teacher's husband.
Waited like super long man. -_-
I even left her alone to wait at the mrt control station, went to ShihLin, queued to order, queued to collect the food, went someplace to chat with Baby on the phone 'cause he called...

In the end the person still haven come.
BIANG EH SMDJ.
They thought the weather very cool hor wait there won't melt...
Tsk tsk.

After that shopped around for a while.
Got a T-shirt at 5 bucks. Heh can wear to school~
I'm a cheapo laa but go ngee ann only wear so nice for what.
All the stuff i wear to school all cheap and anyhow der.
Who cares. Never wear pyjamus already very show-face liao.
Haha!

Oh yeah spent a long time at comics connection with OngGerm.
Cannot make it laa they sell all the merchandise of good-looking people,
like that fangirls will feel like camping there der.
OH YAA they got sell chiong version of PIG-RABBIT from You're Beautiful.
Sibei cui. -_-
Wonder how people get the real version. I also wan leh.

Hmm after that go home watch Star Awards.
This year quite disappointing leh. Their outfits not impressive at all.
Esp. Joanne Peh look like she escape from mental hospital lor.
Or maybe i got no fashion sense baa. -_-

I go watch Hello Baby also better.
Some more my favourite Michelle Chong didn't get top 10.
Singapore really all no sense of humour ahh, she's so funny can. =\

Baby called just now.
Today learned stuff about field camp...
Hmm after he books out, book in should be camping out in the field ler.
Cannot use phones then. :( Oh well.
Yes 2 more days of school then i'll see baby. YESH!
*love*

Day 13 ; Lolli lolli lollipop.

2010-04-24T23:48:00.002+08:00

Pic from yest at IMM. Yes we were super tired from waiting so pardon the falling-asleep look. -_-

Anyway woke up today earlier than i thought i would.
Rolled about the house until about 4 then go out to Potato Farmland with germ again to eat. *love*
Only potatoes can make up for a miserable stay-home saturday without Baby... :)

Yepp. Spent lesser today 'cos i ate a bit before leaving house.
Broke liao laa. Still can't get over the $18 textbook thing. Nb.

Hmm after getting home rolled about some more before walking to northpoint again.
Met mum to go Semb shopping centre together.
For stupid OngGerm to get her Lollipop phone. -_-

Cheaper liao leh. $118 can get. Sai right. Lg phones really got no value...
Next time i'll probably switch to Samsung. JGS endorsing Samsung Yepp and he used Samsung Corby in his drama. Then, 2NE1 endorsed Corby flip. Swee steady laa Samsung is officially the new trend~

Anyway had dinner at foodcourt. Their Korean food not bad sia. Shared Spicy Toufu soup with OngGerm. Freaking big bowl of soup lor then inside got seafood some more. Shiok. I love Korean stuff liao laa. It's like some virus rapidly seizing all countries. Haha.

So now i'm home.
Just now Baby called and said he was given 9packets of pills and 1 bottle of syrup medicine because of constipation.
WTF?! 9 packets isn't it too much. Lol cute sia the army.

Hmm Mindy's bf also going in soon ler. Eden too.
Waa seems like Ns is taking everyone away from us. :(
Oh well we girls will just keep each other company then...
Haha.

Ok enough crapping. I'll go back to watching Hello Baby liao.
Too gan jiong, can't wait. xD
For those as bored as i am, go watch.
Even if you don't know Shinee there's enough humour to keep you entertained.

Day 12 ; Flood...

2010-04-23T23:48:00.007+08:00

Woke up and met ah lim to go school.
Only had 2 hours of class today lor.
Initially was supposed to be in school from 10 - 6...

I think god wanna help me see JGS. xD

Anyway class was boring, fell asleep.
When it ended, waited for ah lim a while (she went to run at the stadium), collected my ngee ann poly t-shirt then off to IMM Jurong.

Had lunch at ajisan ramen.
Honestly i think their standard drop leh. :(
I'm used to them serving super hard eggs in their ramen, but today even the fried tofu made me disappointed. Ma de, its my favourite lor, they cook until like that...
Was so much better last time la, or maybe it's just the jurong outlet got prob.

I'm so pathetic you know, it's like the first time in ages since i last ate some expensive food.
Some more i realised that every time i eat japanese cuisine, it's with ah lim.
Which means rarely get to eat lor.
'Cause stupid baby don't like so never get to eat. D:

Anyway wait for JGS from 3 to 5.30. In between got go walk around 'cos the sun damn hot (and 'cos we found someone to chop place for us). After shopping for a long time, came back and it started to rain. -_-

I thought he's not gonna turn up lor, got thunder and all... BUT HE DID. Such a responsible fella. xD So at least it was worth it for those hardcore fans that stood in the rain just to catch a glimpse of him. Lim and i hid in the shelter all the way 'cos we only wanted to kpo. LOL.

Anyway he got on stage and the mcs interviewed him but the thunder was too loud so didn't hear a shit. Also didn't get to see his face 'cos even though i had a very good spot, my eyesight cannot make it. So basically i saw only his shape. Kuku right.

After a while decided to leave. Jurong got poor drainage systems ahh? The whole bloody place is damn flooded can. All the way from IMM to MRT all the same. TSK. My footwear is totally NOT waterproof lor. =\

Hmm baby called super early tonight. 8 oclock.
Seems like he doesn't have much to do inside... xD
Sounded happy today which is good.
Oh well wish the next few days will pass in a jiffy~
Hope he gained lots and lots of weight so i can squeeze him when he gets back. Haha!

Day 11 ; series of unfortunate events.

2010-04-22T23:43:00.006+08:00

and that "sometimes" happens to be today. :(

'Cause today happened to be one of those ONLY-GOD-KNOWS-WHY-YOU'RE-SO-SUAY days for me.

I got up at 6 plus and dragged myself to ngee ann.
Waited 35minutes for a lecturer who wasn't going to turn up.

Left and went to the bookshop wanted to get my EM3A textbook.
I had $15 dollars with me but in the end it costs a whooping $18?!
They don't accept nets so i wanted to go draw money BUT
the atm chose a PERFECT time to be UNDER MAINTENANCE.
WTF?!

So i quickly escaped the scene and sat down to plan.
Was wondering what to do 'cos i had 6SIX hours before my next lesson and none of my friends are in school yet. T-T
Called ah lim actually wanted to ask her if she can come school earlier to accompany me, or i go find her, etc whatever else that can kill time.

At this brilliant moment my handphone decided to chu stunt.
When i left home the batt bars were full.
On my way to school i slept on the bus so did not listen to music from it.
HOWEVER, like 10 minutes into my discussion with limzai, 3 bars down to none.
NB RIGHT!

Why like that... :(
So in the end went home to charge my handphone.
KAO my house so far can.
Waste my travel fare.
Angry sia.

Came home and slept for an hour then got up, prepare, then went back school again 'cos noon lesson is EM3A. My lecturer sibei fierce kah so cannot siao siao.

Didn't manage to escape the fate of having to get the new textbook either...
Dammit la why can't just use the old version that prev batch passed down to me.
$18 dollars i can eat for how many days lor.

Well the only nice thing about today is i managed to pay full attention to the rest of my classes.
Swee right~ *smug*
Nothing else ler la.

Baby called once in the morning and once in the night.
Sounded fine in the morning but just now he was pretty angsty.
LOL sergeant gl.

Hope my stupid idiot will control his temper while inside la. -_-
If not damn problem sia...
Today is such a bad day, if only he didn't have ns i could've gone to his house to charge phone and sleep and he wouldn't have gotten scolding.
Oh yeah some more his house there got straight bus 25 minutes can reach school.

Tsk.

Day 10 ; party world.

2010-04-21T23:04:00.003+08:00

I'm so tired my eyes are gonna close any moment. -_-
Haven't been getting much sleep these days.
Just a short entry tonight...

Baby called in the morning like 5am.
Chatted for a while so i felt a wee bit better.

Got to school and had Video Tech.
Honestly the theory part is sooooooo boring can.
But 'cos i didn't have my laptop with me today, i paid attention. :0
Haha duhh my mind did drift off la, once in a while~

After that end of lesson, came back to yishun to meet Xiu.
Nice new hair colour man.
Anyway she got her threading done then we went to have dessert.
Gossip non-stop...

No laa i mean if the things we talk about are somehow related to us, its not considered gossip right. -_-
I think a better word would be "bitch".
Yaa so bitched about f-ed up things that happened blah blah blah.

Both of us got quite frustrated in the end so to vent, we went to partyworld.
LOL xiu didn't sing much lor.
So once i got tired of singing we just lied down on the comfortable sofa and blast kpop all the way.
Brown eyed girls, Shinee, 4 minute, ss501, Super Junior, G Dragon, 2Ne1...
They got simi we play simi. :D

Lol not bad hor. Machiam music video marathon.
Got good-looking people to gape at some more.
Swee~

Baby called many times today. Other than the one before dawn, he called in the noon while i was with xiu, and once more in the evening...
I guess yesterday set him off on a panic mode. :(
Sorry.
For now i'll try not to think about all that crap, but if the my problem surfaces again i think we'll really need to talk it through once and for all...

Love is a troublesome thing, it either makes you whole, or it tears you apart.

Day 9 ; otters.

2010-04-21T00:03:00.007+08:00

“Otters hold hands so they don’t float away from each other.”

If you haven't watched them,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=epUk3T2Kfno&feature=player_embedded
watch till the end~

Despite having nice dreams last night, my day begun with a bad start.
As i got ready for school those thoughts started creeping into my head again.
I think i don't even need to mention and people will just know what i'm referring to already.

I'm still that egoistical bitch who can't get over my injured pride.

Anyway got to school.
Totally have no idea what my first lecture was about.
Didn't know anybody from that class, didn't even bother to look around...
Hmm, bad start.

However EM3A's lecture was pretty cool.
My lecturer freaking diao, it's hard to explain why but she's so forceful and exaggerated that i can't not pay attention.
If i continue to stay this interested i might actually pass the subject well. xD
I better go get a new textbook soon...

After that, to ahma's house. After feeling starved the whole day dinner tasted especially nice.
Sat down to watch tv and whoa lahh i got reminded of those thoughts again 'cos the tv was showing exactly the same scenario.
wtfccb.
You may think we're over-reacting, but thats exactly how I and Cleo (in the show) sees things and trust me, it's gonna hurt you BAD too when your turn comes.

Baby called while i was bathing so we didn't talk much.
Actually he did call in the noon too while i was in school but it wasn't the right atmosphere to chat either...
So nothing much except learning the news that our hamsters' babies gave birth to more hamster babies.
Then, lights-out 4 minutes into the call so we hung up.

Tomorrow it's 1 more week of waiting till his 1st book-out, 5 more weeks till POP, almost 2 years till his ORD.
This is such a wrong time to get doubtful about whether i'm waiting for the right person...
Sometimes i wonder whether it's wrong to have put up the silly act of forgiveness that time, for a freaking lame reason that only i know of.

It's getting obvious that not only have i not forgotten, i couldn't bring myself to forgive either.
All my pretense from the past is playing back at me now, tripping me over.

If i could have seen the big picture instead of the minor problem then, i would have stood up for myself to cut our agony short.
Fuck that i went ahead to drop my 尊严 that time...

Day 8 ; start of schoool!

2010-04-19T22:44:00.003+08:00

School started today.
It's my 3rd year in ngee ann, however i'm still stuck with many year 2 modules.
What the crap. -_-
Haha not excited at all to begin my lessons with juniors i don't know.

Sheena needs to learn to be friendly and nice.

Duhh. Anyway met ahLim to go school today 'cos Monday is the only day we have same classes. :(
First lesson about World Issues. I can foresee that it will be a rather dry module next week onwards.
Lucky i've got a pretty and young woman for a lecturer, which makes up for everything. xD
First lesson was about stereotyping, precisely what i LOVEEE to do every single day, so it was quite fun.

Next lesson about Sports and Media. Naohia i'm totally clueless.
The whole class only got like 4 girls, the rest are all boys who were so enthu about soccer, tennis and WWE.
Ended up scribbling on my notes. -_-
Lucky he dismissed us early if not mould might start growing from my head.
Totally brain-dead.

Got home quite early today so resumed my maid duties.
Once again dinner tasted good because i helped cook a couple of dishes.
Wonder if i'm just being delusional, haha. xD

Baby called at 9 today...
Didn't get to chat much again, batt left with 2 bars.
Waliao like that how to tahan till 28th? :(

Can't even remember what we talked about 'cos our conversation ended hurriedly.
Sad. I miss my babyyy la. *wails*

T-T

Day 7 ; oh man.

2010-04-19T00:08:00.004+08:00

Stuck at home the whole of today.
As usual became the maid of the house and did housework, then got nagged at for not doing enough...
-_- tsktsk.
Tired leh, last day of holidays you know...

I practically cooked the entire spread for dinner so everything tasted damn good.
I ate much more than i should have. Haha.
Proud okay~

Anyway i just found out JangGeunSuk will be in Singapore next week.
FUCK. I want go see. T-T
But oh well might have to miss this 'cos i'm broke...

Lucky it's not 2NE1.
LOL.

I'm feeling grouchy 'cause didn't get to chat much with baby. :(
I miss him so bad. But he's phone's batt down to 3 bars and that has to last till 28th April when he books out, so he can contact me while i wait at pasir ris...
Drats. Why aren't they allowed to bring chargers into Tekong. =\

Baby did swimming today! Haha.
Talk about learning something new everyday...
I didn't know he could swim. xD
He's quite offended when i sounded surprised.
LOL how am i supposed to know ahh.

^^

BAHH school's starting tmr.
I'm worried as usual.
May this be a good semester...
DO WELL SHEENA!~

Day 6 ; potato farmland!

2010-04-17T23:18:00.004+08:00

I woke up late as usual but excited. Haha.
Today is the day to finally satisfy my cravings. ^^

Didn't even bother to dress properly and just headed out despite the drizzle.
See the power that potatoes have over us? xD
So Germ and i just walked quite a long distance over to Potato Farmland and ate as though we had starved for 10 days.
Spent $11 bucks in total, and i was so damn full i felt like just lying on the floor waiting for someone to come carry me home. -_-

Anyway got home and rolled about for a while before mum called to meet us at northpoint.
Initially wanted to get a handphone for Germ 'cos hers went missing, but they said we need to go over to Semb shopping centre then can get the pink lollipop one.
Lameshit. Ma fan si le.

Oh and I bought hair dye home! Past few times i used Apricot Brown which is the lightest in the beauteen series but it was still very dark on me, 'cos my hair itself is super black. So today i bought Gold Brown BLEACH and left my hair to bleach for 1 hour instead of the 30minutes listed in the guide.

Guess what?
NO DIFFERENCE. D:
My hair really no hope ler laa. Anything will still look dark on my hair.
Kns.

Baby called early today so we had a good long chat. :)
He got 3 jabs today, and one from a super noob nurse so it bled a lot.
Dunno whether to laugh or cry... Tsk.

Anyway he shared that he's bunkmates are almost all jc students and they like to talk about PORN everyday.
WTF is wrong with them huh. Got so deprived ma?
I mean, people who get enough sex won't need to research for so many sites in order to jerk off to other people's pleasure, right? -_-

Damn gross sia. Keep talking about this kind of things so "low" lor.
I thought you all study so much, go talk about your A maths or history laa.
Disrupt people's sleep only.
Fucktards. Such horrid influence.

Baby cannot learn from them hor... =\

Day 5 ; stay-home day againnn.

2010-04-16T23:37:00.004+08:00

Yes surprise surprise, i stayed at home again!
Weeeee~
...boring. -_-

Well as usual did the laundry, then became lazy to do anything else, so glued myself to the comp researching about Lee Hyori and JANG GEUN SUK.
Much love for the latter. ^^

Spent the time cutting myself a new ringtone, and other random stuff like watching commercials of Etude House (if u didn't know, it's the pink n cute little make-up shops? I know there's one in Plaza Sing and one at Orchard mrt...)

Anyway it rained like mad again today. So it made me feel happier about the fact i'm stuck at home these days.
Oh yeah and i grew 2 humongous pimples on my face omgwtfbbq.
It's so prominent, i seriously wonder why its happening...
If baby was here he'd poke at them and laugh. Damn... D:

Speaking of baby, he called at 10.15 after lights out.
Don't understand why they didn't standardize a fixed timing for lights out luh. =\
Wierdos. Machiam trying luck lor. Haha.
Anyway he's got some rifle test thingy tmr.
All the best baby!~ :D

We've never been apart for more than 5 days.
The longest gap between our meetings was 4 days only. Haha.
We broke the record and will keep breaking it till day 16...
Both of us doing pretty fine on our own up to now, though i still miss him a lot.
Oh well, HWAITINGG! ^^

Day 4 ; thunderrr & lightning

2010-04-15T23:34:00.004+08:00

Slept right till noon (3 o'clock, to be specific) before getting up and heading over to grandma's house.
Since i still had pretty much time in hand, decided to walk there.
It took 45 min.
LOL. xD

Doesn't seem far but it's seriously tiring 'cos of the overhead bridges and stuff...
Totally KO after i reach.
But it's good exercise. :)

Slacked in front of the tv and it started to rain cats and dogs, with thunder and lightning and all that shit. Lucky i wasn't caught in that. -_-
After a while the storm got violent and i was afraid the tv might explode, so turned it off and started to read.

Diary of a wimpy kid is seriously a lame book.
Haha. Anyway the book is for kids laa. Finished the entire book of 200(?) pages within an hour 'cos the font was huge and there were at least 1 picture per page.
*no comments*

After dinner came home...
Assam fish is LOVE. :D

Anyway Baby called 4 times today!
Handling rifles now and their trainings are getting progressively tougher...
Baby will be so strong when he comes out. ^^
Haha.
Oh and the msges got to him a day late. I'm happy now, but m1 is still a retard for being so slow.

Whatever~
* extremely cheerful now due to moodswing*

Day 3 ; caught in the rain.

2010-04-15T00:33:00.007+08:00

Got up at early noon, dressed up and met xiu at northpoint for subway.
You must be thinking like "why the hell would anybody dress up to go northpoint?!"

Well that is because yesterday, stupid xiu went to tell her friend who is joining us that i'm chio.
Then she hurriedly came to msn me to better come in make-up. -_-
Sucker right. Without make-up got so cui ma? Haha.

Anyway i've been cooped up at home for quite long and i've no idea when's the next time i'll be heading out, so just dress nicely whenever i get the chance lor. *pathetic*

Subway was nice. Always one of my favourite places to eat at. Their meatballs are quite addictive...
Or maybe i just have a thing for meatballs la. :)

After shopping around for a while, xiu and friend left for vivo while i strolled home.
It started raining halfway through and i got stuck under this shelter for about half an hour.

Wasn't a long time, but to me it felt like ages 'cause this is the place baby and i always rest at if we're tired from walking, whenever he sends me home.
We would then sit there to talk about all sorts of things till we forget the time.
Felt damn weird sitting there alone, i feel so incomplete.

I remember how baby hates it when i'm alone...
Now i know why it scares him 'cos today it scared me too.
When i have time alone i think of all sorts of things, especially negative ones.
Then my imagination will run wild and i'll start to see super pessimistic images in my head. xD

LOL i must be a moron; my mind is a wreck. Haha.
Lucky the rain stopped fast so i hurried home, concentrating on not stepping into puddles to keep my mind occupied.

Came home and cleaned out my wardrobe, seriously about time i did that. I still have clothes from primary school hidden in there. Imagine.

That killed alot of time. Even took a break in between to go to the marketplace near home to have vegetarian food for dinner (with family), catch the 8pm cooking programme and take a nice bath.

Baby called at 10. Its that time of the month again so i'm pms-ing quite bad.
When i heard him say he did not recieve any of my messages i sent today i felt so upset i cried.
I made it a point to still tell him everything that i was doing, like in the past, 'cos that way it feels like he's still close to me, and at night when he reads all my messages it's like he's still getting updated about my life and it makes him feel more secure.

HOWEVER i've no idea what m1 did to my messages today, but they didn't get sent across.
I'm so affected 'cos i was emotional the whole of today and sent him a lot of messages about my feelings towards him.
Those messages were really important to me. Fuck you M1. _|_

Sorry baby for crying. I know it made u worry.
I was just so pissed off with myself for sending so many smses stupidly when in the end my point is not gonna get across to you anyway.
Super exasperated... :(

I miss you~

Day 2 ; hibernation.

2010-04-13T23:45:00.004+08:00

Slept early last night so woke up pretty early in the morning too.
Forced myself back to sleep a couple more times before dragging myself out of bed finally.
At 4 in the noon. -_-
Haha like that the day won't seem so long ok...

Anyway got up and busied myself with the chores.
Laundry, hanging up the clothes, sweeping and mopping the floor , helping mum with cooking dinner.
Actually doing housework is quite good exercise.
Perspired a lot and i feel like i've burned plenty of carbs today.
^^

It rained in the afternoon and there was thunder.
When i checked the forecast it said the weather will be like that too on tekong. :)
Although there'll still be training but at least less chance of heat stroke ma...
Doesn't have to rain everyday but just hope it won't ever get too hot and sunny on that island.

Baby called thrice today, i'm glad.
They didn't start on the tiring training stuff yet, maybe they will tomorrow...
Good luck baby you have my moral support!~

Anyway he's still getting 3 sticks a day inside. -_-
Not too bad a life huh.
All that talk about quitting... Tsktsk.
Haha.

I feel like i've come to terms with the fact that he's away on his own.
Less paranoid today,
but nevertheless i think of him every moment.

Day 1 ; Tekong. (editted)

2010-04-12T23:52:00.014+08:00

Day 1 of baby's enlistment...
Woke up at like 6 plus in the morning to prepare, train-ed to Pasir ris with Baby and parents, and had a nice breakfast at mac before baby goes in there to eat whatever nonsense they prepare. Lol.

The weather was being perfectly horrid and it did a nice job making all the enlistees more sian.
Baby was quiet all the way, from taking the train to taking the bus to taking the ferry.

Sidetrack a bit, the ferry sucks. I felt seasick 5 minutes after i stepped on, and the ferry haven't even started to move yet. It was still the time when others try to get on board, and half my soul already slipped into unconsciousness... Closed my eyes and tried to rest my mind 'cos i know if i didn't i'd throw up on the little baldie sitting in front. Haha.

Anyway we took a tour around tekong while baby joins the rest of the boys for briefing.
Tekong was quite pretty unlike how i imagined it to be.
They actually bothered to make the place "look" nice and even planted flowers along the roads.
Haha wtf. I'm less worried after seeing the bunks 'cos at least there are enough fans and the beds aren't too hard.

Then there was the long slideshow part that put me to sleep immediately once it started.
Oath-taking for the soldiers, blah blah, then we reunite with baby for our final meal before he gets snatched away from us. The food was quite ok but i know they like to geh siao. Because all the parents are here they'll of course show us the air-conditioned slacking room with tv la, and give us nice food. -_- jin gao geng. Bet like the recruits won't be getting such good treatment lor.

Anyway we got forcefully separated one final time and then baby's officially away from our sides for 16 days. When i saw his back view walking away into the blocks i felt like tearing but i know it's not gonna change anything.

Went back with his parents. The ferry trip back actually felt less jialaat 'cos i was distracted trying to pull myself together. Anyway after reaching yishun i went to get a haircut before coming home to do the laundry.

These few days i won't be working 'cos the machines and power points keep having faults so no cakes can be baked therefore no sales. I think i'll make myself useful this week and hibernate at home, read some books, do some housework, and take out the trash.

Anyway baby called just now at 9 plus, i was looking forward to it so much. Seems like he settled down ok. At least it put my heart at ease. Maybe i'm too much of a worrywart. My baby is a man after all.

Life alone, had never been a problem. For 17 years of my life i couldn't be bothered with anyone but my own happiness and i survived fine. Some times i get really affected when people say i'm not independent. Well maybe finance-wise yes, i can't afford many things yet so baby helps for now.
But in other sense i think i was fairly reasonable.

Maybe i was just over-concerned and protective. Everyone thinks i'm just out to lock his freedom and stick to him like glue and i'll probably pass away without him around.

I guess nobody understands exactly what i believe is the duties of a good gf. I remember when there was period of time he tons 3 nights a week with his friends and at that point HE STILL HAD SCHOOL. I kept quiet. In the end when he fell sick for 5 days, what did anyone have to do? I had to wake up early in the morning accompanied him at the polyclinic from 8 to 12 before rushing to school and ended up late. Then i visit him after school almost everyday to make sure he's recovering well. Why? Because it's my fault as a gf i did not look after him and did not stop him from from staying out and in the end his health was affected.

Everything that happens to him i am partially responsible. When he goes out, gets himself injured in the face, while others were all encouraging him to go get back at the retards as though that was the most important thing ever, i woke up at 5 in the morning to go to his house, boil eggs, peel them and rub them on the blood clot before rushing off to school, 'cos lessons start at 10. I made sure to do that everyday till he got better. But who knew?

And which is why i got angry with myself i knew i had to do something. My bf last time, though is not those that will look for trouble, but all he thinks of is playing outside and not going home. And that's when shit comes knocking at his door. As a gf i have a duty to prevent such things from happening. If he can't change i can't stay on with him and act like im fine with being a lousy gf to some one i love. All i ask for is for him to not loiter around aimlessly till late at night, and not visit places populated by bengs 'cos he'll get pulled down to their level of stupidity when they find trouble and he respond.

However i noticed my intentions were all viewed as bad and jialaat. I seriously have no idea what else i have to do. Everyone just knows that i quarrel with him, i want him to pei me often and want him to go home early, etc. Who knew the intentions behind?

On that fateful day, i did not ask him to u-turn back to find me. I told him if there was a misunderstanding and if he don''t think he has a responsibility to clear things up properly then so be it. In the end when he returned i found out i misunderstood, so i apologized to him and sponned his cab fare home. Was i that wrong like people say?

Every time i quarrel with him, is it not because he was irresponsible with his actions or words? Going to places while i was using the toilet, without even telling me through a call or msg, so i end up searching high and low; talking about his previous girls like as though im invisible. Hallo i made a point to shut up about my previous guys so as not to make him feel inferior, so why can't he? Of course i have to drive my point across strongly, if not you think he will remember? You think i have not given him any chances before losing my cool?

If you say i'm sticky like glue I only go wherever he goes because:

firstly, he was the one who always said, if i dun wan to go somewhere, he won't go. I glad he considers my feelings but in this case i feel obliged to accompany him while he needs to attend his rounds and meetings because i know its important to his friends.

secondly, i was with him for 1 year and a month, and never was there a time he got into direct conflict with any beng. Because when people guailan and he gets angry i'll be there to appease him. To me, the best way to keep him away from trouble is to be right beside him. The only way to not worry is to have him with me, because whenever i let him do what he wants, he always manage to get involved in the unnecessary, which is truly upsets me when i hear of them.

I remembered he once asked me that since i had so much time for my other friends why can't i spend more time with him. I tried to make him happy, i made my circle of friends smaller till i'm left with just that few friends. Do everyone really think that 19 yrs of my life i haven't made many friends? I gave up my social circle just so that i can spend more time with him, take care of him and do everything i can to let him think like a purposeful man with a sense of responsibility. Because my bf needs that kind of undivided attention.

However these few days i'm getting so discouraged because of what i heard... If as friends you all can do what i did for him, i can still say with confidence that i'm willing to do ten times, thousand times more. Because i love him, i want the best for him. And that doesn't include a "happy-jiu-hao" mindset.

16days is not long for others but it's painful for me. Not because i won't get to see him. When he works i was understanding and didn't bug him to meet for no particular reason. What more about the army? I more than understand that this is a phase every guy has to go through. Cannot meet is not a problem.

What hurts me the most is my concern will not be able to extend across the seas. When he needs a hug i won't be able to give him one. When he hurts himself i can't take care of him. When he hates his food i won't be able to cook for him. When he's tired i can't give him a pat on his back to tell him that he did a great job and to hang in there. When he's going through tough training i'm far far away unable to do anything.

Imagine thoughts like this running through your mind for 16 days and see if you go crazy. I've never felt this useless and clueless all my life.

my babies.

2010-04-12T01:36:00.009+08:00

Spent baby's last day (before ns) at jurong point.
Shopped around and baby got a black snowcap to hide his little botak head. xD
LOL. Anyway squirrel came along too~
Baby didn't want him to rot at home alone,
so i brought him back with me...
Now he has pancake and didi for company!

Look at them! :D

Baby i'll miss you while you're away. :(
Take good care of yourself, be a good boy and listen to your sir k.
Eat more, grow fit, and remember to think of me,
'cos i'll be doing that all the time...

botak day.

2010-04-11T02:35:00.004+08:00

Gig look. :D
Izu babe spent forever trying to get my hair to curl lor.
Gratitude~
I almost fell asleep can...

Anyway gig was actually fun despite it being quite a mess. LOL.
Oh well at least when we screw up, we screw up as a bandddddddddd...
Team spirit! xD

resigned to his fate... haha.

Here's the last photo of us while baby still has his hair.
(pardon the ah soh bun hairstyle, i perspired buckets walking to the hairdressers. -_-)

Anyway he's officially botak now! *love*
Feels nice rubbing his head~
He's still not comfortable with it though and won't let me take pictures... =\

One day i will succeed getting a photo of how he looks like now. Swear!

^^

2010-04-10T02:41:00.003+08:00

Say hi to PANCAKE!!! :DDD

Super cute right omg. Been looking for it for so long, ever since i saw someone carrying it last christmas. People told me we can only get this from those *plushie-grabbing(?) machines in the arcades. We tried some time ago but wasted money and gave up 'cos baby and i no skill. xD

BUT today baby bought this for me me me! ^^ Plaza Sing have lor, but we missed it the last few times we were there. Really have to search in detail~

My favourite (cutest) part of pancake:

Despite it's huge head it has extremely tiny feet! Wth right. xDDD

Haha. Shall hug this to sleep from now on...

Anyway caught Date Night with the free movie vouchers that aunt jane gave us. It's funny but only if you can get the English and follow their conversations. LOL i quite like it though there were also parts i didn't manage to catch. :)

Gig's tomorrow.
A bit worried 'cos we didn't practice much.
Oh well have to just whack. :0
Getting stage fright already...

recently...

2010-04-07T00:34:00.007+08:00

Been too distracted to blog lately so finally here's a summary of what had happened... :)

Been to sentosa during the weekends with baby and his friends.
Suay part was that it started raining while we were at the beach so i can't sit on the sand like last time. :(
The rest played frisbee, ball, and swam.
In the end it got too heavy so i headed to hide in the shelter.

The boys came too after a while 'cos AD got stung by a jellyfish. @_@
I've never encountered such a thing in my life i thought it was going to be lethal.
LOL. But after the lifeguards sprayed some medicine the little swells and bumps disappeared.
Thankful for that~

Had a picnic in the shelter...
When the rain stopped we went to try the skyride and luge.
FUCK the luge was damn cool. :D I had trouble with it, but given a second try i'll definitely be some kind of pro. I think.
Haha.

Then explored Resort World which was hella beautiful. It feels like we're in another country altogether. *LOVE* I really miss going overseas. :( Took a photo outside universal studios. One day i must go in there to play! Now no chance 'cos seriously too poor. -_-

Isn't this cute! Germ taught me how to make it... Interesting no?

Went to catch Clash of the Titans the other day...
All i can say is... ERRR OKAY... =\
Maybe i'm just not that into ugly monsters shit.
Percy Jackson definitely better imo.

Then it was dinner at astons again. WTF. xD

I was bloghopping when i saw a friend listing the pros and cons of being in a relationship.

Haha it's a funny but if you ask someone who has been single for 17 years of her life aka me, i'd say making a commitment to just one person is actually quite an amazing thing.

Like a few others i did have commitment phobia too, long before. Who needs a bf, what i needed was a freedom of choice, to be with whoever, whenever i like. Like that i can get entertained by different people and life becomes interesting and flexible.

I was doubtful about being in a relationship with baby 'cos nothing had ever worked out properly with anyone else before, but lets just say i took the risk and went ahead. Of course that's where the list of cons comes in. However if there's love between two parties all 'wrong's gets balanced out with the 'right's and we'd be happy.

So what i want to say is... There'll be more pros of being in a relationship IF he/she is a good partner.

I'm lucky to have found baby. Every time a problem arise he would take pains to get things sorted out. Even if it meant stuff like after sending me home, we quarreled while he's on the way back, then him u-turning to find me to talk things out.

Many times we quarrel because we're much too different. (eg. I'm extremely sensitive to words and unfamiliar people but baby is too big of a blockhead to know what hurts, what disgusts and who approaches with ill motives. -_-)
Other times we quarrel simply because there was a misunderstanding.

But once we clear things up we'd become closer than before; no journey can be smooth-sailing from start to end. :) If your relationship is like fairytale, be careful 'cos your bf/gf is either part of your imagination or he/she is really hiding her thoughts and feelings from you till the day it explodes. If not, he/she can't even be bothered about you laa. -_-

Anyway the pros of being in a relationship, needless to say, is to feel loved.
Duh. You'll know it when you do.
Like being looked after, taking care and being there for each other, giving and receiving, together exploring a place you yourself have been at 1000s of times before even becomes more interesting, 'cos you're with the one person that makes you feel happiest and luckiest. :)

Just my thoughts.
Anyway that aside, i shall end off with a bitchy comment since this post sounds so void of sarcasm that its almost not me. LOL.

wads sho bad about ah lian
siah? at least all r prettier than uiie who hate ah lian lorrhs lame siah

Well i've known of worse people who type like the above yet defiantly refuse to accept their rightful label of being called ah lian. HALLO. HAVE YOU BEEN ENGAGING EXTRA-TERRESTRIAL BEINGS AS TEACHERS ALL YOUR PAST LIFE? Whoever told you english was supposed to be spelt like that?

Yes my pretty ones, in angmoh countries these people would be called bimbos. However in singapore you're not even of that class to be called bimbos 'cos you squat too much along the streets like homeless children. In that case some genius have came up with a beautiful name of ah lian for you. Its actually a compliment you know. At least you're lian like a lotus flower. Flower chio leh! :D

Honestly you are what you choose to show. If you want to behave like a nitwit, or spell like you haven't undergone basic primary school education, it's just too bad that people will give you such a name. Don't whine la you'll become a joke. (:

wad a joke huh?

2010-03-30T23:59:00.004+08:00

Weekends were rather laid back.
Shopped around at orchard and caught How to Train your Dragon.

LOL superb show. Almost like Avatar 'cos of all the flying around. ^^
Plus Night Fury is too cute. Everyone should watch it i totally recommend.

Tried searching for a wallet.
Juicy has a newer edition of my current one but i'm not too into it 'cos it lacks the bling bling that mine has. :( Other than that it's fairly similar.
Was thinking if i should go for the clutch kind of wallet. The price range is about the same luhh slightly ex-er but it has STUDS!!! @_@ Love that part but i'm scared a clutch will be too big and i can' carry small bags anymore.

Gotta take more time to consider...

Sunday stayed in at baby's house sleeping~

Monday down to eunos for baby to collect his pay.
Tried yong tau hu at the hawker centre.
Swee steady. Made us wait almost half an hour due to long queue, but it was really nice.
Didn't expect it to be worth the wait...

After that down to wildwildwet. LOL.
To tell the truth i prefered Jurong's swimming complex. Maybe 'cos the rides at www scared me outta my wits and gave me a headache. -_-

Baby dragged me to try the SLIDE UP which was totally 4-storey high, and the drop damn steep.
I could faint from all the screaming can. Kept my eyes closed half the time...
WTH. Ended up spraining my neck. D:

throw face. LOL.

Oh yea and the skyrider was frightening too. I looked at it and thought it was no-kick, in the end i kept yelling at baby to cycle slower. Shit. It totally felt so unsafe can. I think i might have a phobia for heights. =\

I think i know why god made such a cruel coincidence happen.
He's probably trying to tell me to stop being a bitch to keep checking up on other people's life.
Yes i know the whole point.
Ignorance is bliss.
If i don't know shit i can't let any of these affect my feelings.

Well guess i deserve it then.
As of now i'm still too jealous and hateful to just let the whole thing go.

...but seriously this coincidence is a bit too much.
Damn it, whatever is god playing at....

to the zooooo.

2010-03-26T23:45:00.007+08:00

On the way there in baby's daddy's car~

Visiting the souvenir shop first (for the aircon). Weather was super hot. @_@

The most disgusting animals on earth - crocodiles/alligators/whatever other shit that belongs in their same family. I HATE HATE HATE THEM TTM. Especially when they stay still for a long time then suddenly make a fast and violent movement. Waliao everytime see them behave like that on tv my heart shock until can jump out of my mouth. -_-

Sleeping also must bai pose. LOL.

Look closely at this picture can you see the smaller snake's head being pinned against the rocks?? OMG i think it's squished to death already... YUCK. I mean look at the size of that fattie, his head is double the size of the small snake lor.

Hallo lizard thing! :D

HUMONGOUS tortoises. I think it'll take them an entire day to crawl from one end of their enclosure to another. =\

Caught smooching!

Sj's daddy and mummy~
The statue beside them looks like a dickhead though. :0

sun wu kongs.

pretty bird...
wallaby! super damn cuteee. :)
Boars. Stinky.
White tiger went swimming. xD

Otters. Think they were starving. When we went close to their enclosure they stood in a line and started mewing like cats. Funny. ^^

random waterfall.

After that was dinner at astons.
Did i mention? It was baby's daddy's birthday.
So had astons again. Like 3rd time in a week. LOL.

Oh yea baby went to get a haircut and he looks so young now.
It's really nice but now i'm stressed out 'cos i don't look young at all, duh.
=(
Think next time go out with him must put ribbons in my hair and wear clothes with ben10 prints. Haha.

Wednesaday = great day~~~ *love*

messy stitches can't hold.

2010-03-24T04:36:00.006+08:00

“It’s an open heart that’s vulnerable to the deepest wound.“

—	Gossip Girl

Just like a huge slash across your back;
whenever someone calls you from behind
and you turn around to look,

what was badly sewn but recovering
gets torn apart,
time and again.

Does nobody in this world understand?

Did this never ever happen to anybody else?

I'm not exaggerating.
I'm not as strong as everyone thinks.
One day this might become too much for me to take.

We're already vulnerable enough.
This was a mistake from the start but we're trying hard to make things right.
Please help us.

Maybe if i hide away,
put myself in a shell,
no words can poke at my wounds again.

I'll try whatever it takes to keep this going,
till the day i crumble down to pieces.
Even if it means staying away from people.

But i still can't say for sure the day won't come.
Maybe then some can celebrate our end.

Maybe then the wounds will hurt no more...

splash!

2010-03-22T03:50:00.005+08:00

pardon the "no make-up" shag face.
i know i look like i haven't slept for 10 years. -_-

SWIMMING AT JURONG TODAY!
Sky was being at real bitch at first. Kept raining and raining nonstop.
We reached "Chinese Garden" at about 3 and had to wait 2 freaking hours before the rain became smaller so we can go into the complex and start swimming.

After only 2 rounds around the lazy river, the rain got heavy again so we got chased out of the water and were left to freeze under their pathetic excuse of a shelter.

About 20 minutes later the weather decided to stop its nonsense once and for all, so it was play time finally! :D
The slides were horrifying, the wave pool kept washing me around i wouldn't know where i was headed for if not for baby.

CONGRATULATIONS MR YONG YOU MANAGED TO KEEP ME ALIVE TODAY GOOD JOB.
(though you did try to kill me a couple of times also, but i'll forget that. -_- )

At about 7 both of us were starving so bad we had to leave the pool. Took many many photos for keep-sake before washing up, since

it's a long time since i last swimmed,
it's my first time in a bikini,
it's my first time at Jurong swimming complex
it's my first swimming outing with baby!

Decided to just post one pic up 'cos i'm really not comfortable with showing my "skin" to people who know me.
Usually these are the ones who like to judge me on superficial terms... Shame huh?
SO, to avoid providing potential gossip material, all u shall see is our tired faces.

But you can still see a teeny-bit of my bikini here! I love it so much it's so pretty. *swoons*
How i wish i could show off my birthday present from baby, but i'm sure some readers will be thinking like its such a perverse thing to be in bikini and that i should be in a full-piece diver suit in order to look prim and proper.

Oh well hope u people enjoy being a swa gu for the rest of your no-lives then! :D
I'm gonna do you all a FLAVOUR, spare you guys the eyesore and save the photos for my own. LOL.

Yesterday met up with xiu and xuan for astons. Thanks for the birthday treat love you babes forever!

And of course steamboat dinner with lim zai was OWN as well. We ordered too much, ordered many wrong things like pig innards etc, and ended up forcing a lot down our throats 'cos we thought we'd be fined for waste. Wanted to cry when we found out they didn't have such a rule. Was totally over-stuffed lor. xD

But thanks for the pretty dress and the card! So sweet of you... AHMA HEARTS YOU LA MY AH LIM! ^^

T-T

2010-03-19T03:04:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling so panicky and uncomfortable the whole of today.
Contributing factors:

tomorrow results will be released and i'm so worried that i won't pass.
had to work on the songs for jamming and i really have no inspiration for one of the tracks.
won't get to meet or hear much from baby these few days 'cos he'd be working.
life is weird without WGM Hyunjoong and Hwangbo, 'cos i finished the series yesterday.

It's so sad that their story just ended like that. Can't it continue forever so i'll always have something to watch? :( I love the Ssangchu couple. Time to worry about when Gain and Kwonnie's marriage will come to an end... Think i'll be crying again for this couple luhh.

AIYAH JUST GET MARRIED FOR REAL MAH.
Sadistic shit. Like to torture audience only. ~_~

Oh well shall go back to watching Down with Love and try to get Hyunjoong and his antics off my head.

rocka rocka rocka rocka rocka rocka so fantastic!

2010-03-18T03:24:00.007+08:00

This year's birthday was great too.
Huge thanks to everyone who remembered, though its actually not that hard.
('cos facebook is everyone's best friend. )
But still gotta say "kamsahamnida!" to those that actually bothered to leave or send me a msg!
*LOVE*

Went to Vivocity with baby to celebrate the day.
Look at my pretty present! :D

Inside is a sweet photo frame. Baby got one for himself too so it's sort of a couple thing~
Thanks you so much for putting in effort to decorate the inside of the box too!

Baby put in thin strips of shiny paper (that looks like hamster bedding or hay except it's MUCH MORE GLAM~) and many pretty marbles,
before burying the frame within.
AWW! Love the little glass balls. :D

Seriously didn't expect this much from him. xD
Even though it isn't the most expensive or unique present, i still appreciate that baby put in so much effort to make it special. Very rare of him to be so "hardworking" ok! LOL.
XIEXIEBABY!

Caught Alice in the Wonderland which was a bit of a disppointment to me.
I expected so much more from it but oh well...
Irony : Baby expected it to suck and at the end he felt that it was above his expectations.
See how men come from mars and women are from venus. -_-

Shopped for my 2nd present, which was a bikini set.
Yes you heard right.

Been wanting to go swimming with baby for a damn long time but i didn't have anything to wear that would be considered appropriate.
Spent 1 hour in the shop choosing and trying 'cos it was hard to overcome my fear of being too exposed.
Finally found something that felt safer than the rest so we bought it.
Gonna go swim with baby on sunday at jurong~ ^^

Dinner at Secret Recipe.

unglam shot.

baby waving his knife in my face while waiting for food. -_-
impatient asshole. HAHA.

Here comes our makan!
After that, we just went home...

Tuesday had dinner at astons with family.
:)

Today, accompanied baby to take his grad cert from simei then bus-ed to bugis to buy his swimming shorts.

At night, dinner at bi ru's house with the regular gang.
Lol everyone is into SHINee and their ring ding dong now. xD
Steamboat was nice and then we cut cake.
It was fun being there just listening to them talk crap~

I'm expecting my fb to be flooded with awful pictures of me soon 'cos i look damn shag today and we took lots of pics. D:
Almost no make up ok, didn't even have foundation or blusher or lipstick on lor.

Siao liao i'm gonna be so hideous. T-T

end! *abrupt*

edit: Black soshi is so much better than "look at me oppa, i am a cheer leader!!!" and
"i am too over-aged to be acting like an innocent kid but i'm still trying".

... LOL gonna get aimed again, but seriously i might actually begin to like them more now.
At least i was quite happy checking out their new pv (with the mute on of course).

oops. :)

quickie!

2010-03-15T00:17:00.003+08:00

Basically the photos from last week.

Have been working like a dog at taka for 5 days, but it was still fun~
(check out my work attire. the apron is seriously much too long luh. -_-)
Though its tiring i'm quite sad it ended. Haha.

1st year anniversary we went ahead and got ourselves couple rings,
despite knowing the "curse" thing that people keep going on about.
Not trying to prove the it wrong laa, just gonna let things happen for itself.
If we're not meant to be, no ring also will break maa.
LOL. heck.

Went to watch "being human".
Don't get me started if not i can't stop. -_-
But seriously jack neo is the most thick-skinned person i've ever heard of.
This kind of person still want to make educational movie.
I'd rather feed strays with the $7.50 i spent 'cos the film is seriously NOT FUNNY and UNCONVINCING.

Spending a hell lot of time with baby recently.
Birthday celebration with him tmr!
Seriously wonder wad he has in store... *skeptical*
xD Wadeva it is i'll be sure to like it.
LOVE YOU MWAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Happy One Year Anniversary!

2010-03-11T00:11:00.002+08:00

allow me to say this...

2010-03-08T02:58:00.006+08:00

It's like 3 in the night and i felt this urgent need to blog about a certain thing that has affected me greatly this past year. Pardon me if i get offensive but i don't mean to. I just feel glad i can finally get back my confidence again.

"I found out that the things that hurt us the most can become the fuel and the catalyst that propel us toward our destiny. It will either make you bitter or it will make you better."

-paradoxical love

As many of my friends and closed ones would know, i started feeling inferior about a particular aspect about myself and it bugged me continuously up till today. Superficial, you might say, but no woman in this world will enjoy thinking of herself as ugly.

Well i was made to feel that way once and it came from someone i loved (supposedly unintentional) , so i could never get it off my heart. It weighed me down so many times i couldn't take it. Despite it being against my pride, i still broke down often. It was the first time i ever felt this weak.

I remember how much of a coward i was then. I researched on my "rival" immediately after being compared to her and put down, and was stunned by her display picture. If you are a guy you'd probably can't understand how fucked up it feels for me. Well i really did lose to her, became a loser in the eyes of the one i loved, and in the eyes of his friends... I did not even dare bring myself to see the rest of her photos.

So i became hateful. I hated her without even knowing her. I hated myself for being short, for being fat, for looking like crap, for everything of that sort. I swore to myself i will get ahead in other ways but deep down i know that even if i do, it will never manage to fill up the gaping hole of a wound created on me.

Recent months people do ask me how come i've slimmed down all of a sudden. To tell the truth i did not go on a hardcore diet or do anything drastic to lose weight so quickly. When u feel so pressurized, you automatically will adjust your life style accordingly and once you get used to it, you'll get your results. I've been eating lesser than before but of course enough to keep me full till the next meal. I've been taking every single opportunity to do more walking instead of taking public transport and have been climbing staircase to exercise. That's why i managed to lose 5kg since that fateful incident.

Well today i couldn't sleep and finally plucked up courage to view all the photos in her profile, once and for all. I suppose i would get hurt all over again but i really was too curious to care. The legendary beauty that killed so many girls' confidence without even knowing, i wanted to see every side of her and see how she managed a feat like that.
.
.
.
.
.

I never felt happier about making this rash decision. Now i feel like i have fallen over for no particular reason.

Well... I'm not gonna comment much. All i can say is, there's no such thing as "the fairest of them all". Life is no fucking fairytale. Everybody has got a different definition for beauty. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. Like what appeals to you might never appeal to some one else. Simple as that.

If you are a beng, you'll get attracted to lians (or look-alike lians) and overrate them.

If you are a sex-maniac, you'll get attracted to pornstars (or people with pornstar qualities) and overrate them.

If you are a really career-minded guy, you'll get attracted to driven women (be it they are driven to be a housewife or driven about their work), and overrate them.

If you are a pedophile, you'll get attracted to children, kids, teenagers (depending on how old the old cow is) and overrate them.

If you are a scholar, you'll get attracted to intelligent women and overrate them.

That's just my point. You know, if i ever showed all her photos to those that loved me before they probably would not think much of her as compared to baby and his friends. Now i see the picture.

Like the fortune-teller said before, i'll appeal most to this certain type of guys (shan't mention here) and it was really quite accurate...

Nope baby and his friends are not in that group. ^^ In their eyes she might be the best but they are another group of people, thats why there's attraction and blah blah blah.

Well understandable then.
There's a really huge difference, so even if people compare, i might not always lose.
It's just a matter of who are the people doing the comparison.

I've never felt better this past year. :)
And i'm not going to care if anyone disagrees with me.

Oh yea, i also realised one thing : never trust profile pictures entirely~

explore...

2010-03-08T01:44:00.004+08:00

Once again tried to go somewhere pretty yet budget to spend our weekend at.
A happy saturday at changi airport! :D
From T3 to T1 to T2~

I remember being there with Aman not too long ago...
The T3 was like totally brand new then and not many shops opened, so we just walked around aimlessly and gossiped to our hearts' content.

This time round the T3 isn't considered new anymore so we should have more stuff to see and more shops to explore, BUT HELL WRONG WE WERE.

It was the same luh. -_-
In fact it looked more pathetic than before because on such a beautiful weekend, the airport is practically empty. Of course there were tourists they did their own stuff and nobody bothered to shop around. Bet they're all desperate to get home 'cos singapore's heat almost baked them alive.

Honestly inside got duty-free stuff which idiot tourist will shop outside anyway. Only singaporeans luh.

But no singaporeans, so its gg for shops at the airport. Most of them had discounts lor, 70%, 50%, but all put for show only. Nobody actually walk past to take notice. xD

Baby and i had POPEYE'S at T3, walked around randomly then sky-trained to T1, which was a horrible choice. There was NOTHING TO SEE OR EXPLORE ABOUT THE DAMN PLACE LAA, WAKAU. Quickly regretted so sky-trained to T2, which was slightly better to a certain extent only. Lol.

But have to say, the airport is really clean and is a pretty place overall. ^^
HOWEVER if you have a problem with walking and talking crap for many hours straight without actually doing anything, then better don't go laa. Haha.

Came back to yishun to have dinner at the japanese food court. It was a bad experience man!
Lesson learnt: do not visit the place on weekends, 'cos

1. hard to get seats
2. only 2 workers per stall so please imagine how long the queues were
3. due to ganjiong-ness the workers cooked like ANYHOW.

@#$%...
Such shit probably only happens on weekends though (i hope) , so i'll try to believe that ishimura is still safe for dining on weekdays... :\

SUNDAY was totally MAHJONG DAY at jj's house with baby, ad, and bran. I was quite lucky luh but we didn't bet money so not much point. I'm still quite pleased with myself laa it's not easy to "HU" so many times a day ok. :D

Thats all folks!~

ikea rocks!

2010-03-04T00:10:00.011+08:00

meatballs were the best thing that ever happened to ikea. :D

Because of our strict budget,
we often had trouble brainstorming for places to go on dates.

Which place is fun, no need money upon entrance, and won't have stuff that will tempt us into buying? (or for that matter, won't piss us off 'cos we are tempted but can't afford. -_-)

IKEA lor duh.
It's my heavennnnnnnn~

:D

I was extremely happy today, nothing beats picking out stuff together for our dream home.

I know what you're thinking.
...
WELL WHO CARES THERE'S NO HARM FANTASIZING ABOUT HAVING A FUTURE TOGETHER.
Have a bit of imagination people it stops you from becoming dumber than you already are.

Haha.

I want a beautiful classy house, doesn't have to be big, have a beautiful kitchen so i'll feel "in-the-mood" to pick up cooking, 'cos my bf is really a glutton.

Never judge a book by its cover hor. xD

Had a great date and we spent on nothing except food. (which was definitely good and worth the money in my opinion.)
All we did was point at everything pretty and go "OMG NEXT TIME WE BUY THIS FOR OUR HOUSE K?" ^^

I don't care how others are going to think.
You can judge me and my baby for all you like based on superficial things.
Tattoos, dyed hair, dressing style, piercings, education, whatever fuck old people think would make you a bad person.

But i don't care.
They wouldn't know baby as well as i do.
It's not fair to base anyone's character on appearance.
If you really need to say something about us, say it to my face.
Why go through all the trouble of spreading the word till it travels the entire globe before it reaches my ears?

Maybe baby and i are both wrong.
Maybe one of us would change as time pass to make this a huge mistake.

But for such matters, nobody, not even family, can stand in my way when i make my choice.
You know what, I'm almost 20.
Even if i screw up i'll be responsible for it.

I know how some of these people are just paranoid because they love me and all, but the truth is
i feel extremely burdened by this love.
They shouldn't be expecting more from me than from any other person, it's just not fair.
Call me un-filial or ungrateful, but no i've realized that i'm not obliged to consider each and every one of their feelings and opinions before i make a decision.
I'm not going to sacrifice my life just to make others happy.
All i was given, i would repay, other than that, if it makes no sense to me i won't listen.

Please stop thinking i'm stupid just because i don't do as well education-wise, thanks.

NOTE: This rant isn't directed to my parents. I appreciate that they are starting to trust and respect me more now, and they finally understood that what i need isn't people who keep telling me what to do and what not, what is right and what's wrong. Its my own life, i have the right to decide and experience.

BROWNEYEDGIRLS

2010-02-28T04:13:00.008+08:00

It was a great night out with LIM and JONATHAN to BEG's concert at zouk. :D

The girls were incredible but they made us wait for like 1 and a half hours? -_- What were they doing sia everyone was packed like sardines lor. And I badly wanted to hurl insults when everyone cheered for SNSD's song. The stupid playlist in-charge, hao play bu play choose their song. Yao xiew... BEG backstage leh. Yao play also should play like non-rival der songs ma.

I was like shouting "shui lai de?" (who the hell?!) amidst the uproar of cheers.
Then this know-it-all in front made a point to turn around and inform me that its girls generation.

WTF. I wanted to reply: "HOW I KNOW AH. I ALSO NEVER LISTEN TO THOSE KAO LIAN CHI FAN (AKA NO VOCAL TALENT YOU XUE REN JIA CHIU SIMI GUA??!!) DE GIRLGROUPS..." -_-

I meant to direct this to the entire stupid crowd lor but i scared they whacks me worx. Most of the fans are guys. I don't want to die there 1 against 1000.

I think i might get flamed for this laa but who cares. Get them to sing accoustic live and prove me wrong lor. If they do well i will shut up. :D Honestly act cute act sexy who dunno? I go korea do plastic surgery, starve to stick-thin, then find 8 more hua pings to join me i also can form one 'female generation" liao lor. KAOPEH.

Dun give me that kind of shit that their songs nice. Also not they ownself write and compose one. Wanna bet, give this song to those that can work the song better, it will sound nice also lor, maybe even nicer. Use brain think also know luhh. Lame shit.

-rant over-

I couldnt see much of beg cos i was far behind, didnt come early enough to queue. D: Half the time i was blocked by the know-it-all and her happy hippo clique. (I didn't call her know-it-all for just that reason hor. When i made other comments she found it a necessity to turn around to correct me.)

BUT hearing them live was damn good an experience laa superb vocals cannot see much face also never mind. Just felt sad 'cos i paid $98 bucks from my angpao money to go in and stare at the back of people's heads...

After that Jonathan's family drove me and ahlim home. LOL they have this amazing everything-also-automatic car, that i almost make spoil on many occasions, eg: i didnt know i didnt have to tug so hard at the door to try make it close, etc. Its was a hilarious ride 'cos i accidentally chu a lot of stunts, i can't stop laughing but i think his parents would hate me. xD

LIM AHH UPLOAD PICS LIAO SEND MEEEEEEEEE K!!! :D

last thursday when baby accompanied me under the hot sun outdoors while i tried to take photos for DPG submission...

Regarding the previous post, thanks to everyone who showed their concern.
I'm surprised by the number of people who contacted me to give encouragement.
I really appreciate it so much.

Well for those who know the both of us, i bet you guys are already sick and tired of our retarded cycle. Break patch break patch, till now it's the third time already. Honestly speaking i myself am bored to my deathbed.

However i've decided to give baby, and give the both of us one last shot. I can totally sense the disapproving looks people would give us. I know there are bound to be people who would look forward to the demise of our relationship.

Whatever laa.
I'm gonna try to believe in us again.
If all else fails, then we're really not the one for eachother.

But for now i still love him and he still loves me, changes have been promised, priorities have been set, we're just gonna get back together and let the story continue.

At the end of the day whatever the ending is, just let it slowly unfold on its own baa~

Chapter Closed.

2010-02-26T21:22:00.005+08:00

This chapter of my life lasted a good 81 blog posts.
Much longer than any other blogs i've ever had.
It's gonna be so much tougher for me now compared to previous experiences,
but I'm still thankful for all the wonderful times together.

"Pain nourishes courage. You can’t be brave if you’ve only had wonderful things happen to you."

- Mary Tyler Moore

I'll be okay soon.
I'll become braver.
Hope it'll be the same for you.
You deserve the best.

CNY + VDAY

2010-02-17T23:54:00.011+08:00

Reunion dinner night outfit... :)

Had steamboat dinner at ah ma house.
Most cousins were there.
It was an ok night.
Baby came to wait for me under grandma's block.
We went out for a short while, chatted and had drinks before i went home...

Chu yi + Vday.
Went to popo's house, san jiu's house then back to yishun ah ma's house.
Hectic day of bainian-ing.
Random point: San jiu's house is gorgeous with a strong "zen" feel. Loved it. *_*
At about 8 plus left to meet baby~
Handed him his vday present
(really ugly chocolate-coated strawberries i made xD, and a pink-coloured top)
and recieved mine.
(A white bag, a pink top, a ear stud box.)
Supper round 1 at xinwang.
The food there is starting to taste better again. Maybe it's a diferent chef. =\
Went to catch Percy Jackson which was really nice!
After that had a walk at the park, then round 2 supper at 24-hour mac...
Then home.

Chu er.
Bai nian at baby's house.
I stupidly forgot to bring oranges. D:
Hopefully nobody minds or remembers... Argh.
After that Baby joined my family for dinner at astons.
LOVE.
Then headed down to cineleisure with baby to meet Gabriel and Yuming.
Makan again at this BBQ korean food place.
THEY SHOW KOREAN CONCERTS ON THEIR TV!
I was hoping to catch my wife GaIn didn't get to. :(
Arcade-d and then back to yishun while baby went home.
Met family for supper, drove to balestier to have boon tong kee.
My love for white chicken rice is backkkkkkk!
Chicken skin~ *hearts*

Chu san.
Gambling day at jj's house with the entire clique. Lol.
I didn't play and baby didn't win. -_-
Sai...
Ended up falling asleep.
Still, it was a fun day there.

Random thoughts:

1. CNY didn't feel like cny at all this year.
2. How come 3 out of my 4 outfits were bought and chosen by baby. T-T
3. OMG PLAY TIME'S OVER CRAM-TIME FOR EXAM STARTS NOW!!!

Haha i literally went to "last minute hug the buddha leg" today lor.
Went to bugis to bai bai hopefully i chiong now still can make it. :(
Anyway shopped around at street with baby and bought a really cute skirt. ^^
Can't wait to wear it~

Thanks for valentines baby.
This year's kinda sucks 'cos of CNY,
we both had to bai nian and i couldn't stay out all night to spend time with you.
Anyway all shops were closed and we couldn't find any shit to do also. -_-
Next year's one will be better.
Lets promise eachother.

:)

argh.

2010-02-10T01:21:00.003+08:00

I don't know if it has anything to do with pms...

I'm feeling totally moody and easily upset.

Today was supposed to be a good day.

Before school with baby, after school meet xiu go buy baby's present for vday...

But life has it's way of cocking up and i ended up reaching town way ahead of time even though lessons ended late.

So while waiting for xiu decided to drop by baby's workplace at marina float.

Actually planned to walk to bugis from there after that, but baby don't allow and told me to take bus.

...my ezlink dont have enough money.

So i had to ask baby for money to top-up.

Can you imagine how lame it feels and how angry i was with myself?

I saved up enough to buy him his present, yet on the day itself he had to fund my travel fare.

Doesn't it equate to him buying the present for himself?

What kind of lousy gf uses her bf's money like that...

I don't even have the face to give him his present anymore.

He told me not to be so calculative with him and not to return him even if i ask for money from my mum...

Fuck i have never felt so terrible about being poor.

Baby's having bad days at work also.

The pic above is for you. To climb high we all have to start low; to climb higher we'd have to fall lower first.

Like that we get to see more, and gain more.

I feel so helpless 'cos i don't know how to help him.

He's panicking finance-wise, and me being broke makes things so much worse.

This is so tough.

But whatever it is baby don't give up.

There are other opportunities, if you aren't comfortable with one, seek another.

Sorry for being a burden.

Love you.

close to home :)

2010-02-08T16:18:00.004+08:00

This weekend was spent at home...
Friday before jamming at baby's house, after jamming slack at my house.
Saturday entire day at my house then baby slept over.
Next day go back to baby's house.

LOL.

Can't go anywhere when we have no moolah in the pocket la. -_-

But it was still pretty nice 'cos at least i had baby with me.
And we did go out for a while...

to north point lor.

xD
machiam it makes a difference.

Anyway no school for me today.
Decided to stay home 'cos i'm too lazy,
and i'm still paranoid about the assassin running amok in yishun.

WHY ISN'T HE ARRESTED YET DAMMIT.

I need to brainstorm about the fucking DPG project that they are so ganjiong about.
Why must presentation be this week? -_-

Think i just anyhow take a few pics of my house can ler laa.
Pass jiu hao. zzz.

Was just working out.
Hope to slim down before cny. D:
But one big problem : da yi ma visiting during cny period.
Nabehh my new year clothes all white luhh. GG.

Baby's back to work now. CNY reunion dinner night also going to work.
Oh well i dunno what to say... tsk.

poor.

2010-02-07T01:44:00.003+08:00

How big can you feel when all you've got is 1 buck in the bank and 10 bucks in your wallet?
(Worse still the $10 is actually emergency fund from bf...)

Felt so super lousy today laa.
I hate this persistent problem.

I've stopped buying tobacco altogether.
And I definitely don't remember spending extravagantly.

But i'm still so pathetic that i have to borrow from others in order to get ready a present for valentines.

Fuck that.

After seeing my sulking face today
baby asked whether money might be an issue that will cause break-up in a relationship.

Well, nobody with self-respect will enjoy leeching on another person's money, be it hard-earned or not.

And it feels exceptionally bad when the person,
is someone you really love.

watch what you're doing.

2010-02-06T02:17:00.009+08:00

"I've been reckless,

but I'm not a rebel without a cause."

-paradoxicalove

I hate it when people don't put me in their eyes.
You can pretend i'm transparent or invisible
but i still exist.

I'm still here, so suck it up and respect that.
You may not find me a threat but don't push me.

Oh and don't regret posing me a challenge
after you see how ruthless i can play in a game.

In this life what's mine is mine,
and what's yours might just end up to be mine too.
You wanna try? :)

Simply put I won't let you get past me easily.
Go home and be good, little kid.

epic shitz.

2010-02-05T01:07:00.005+08:00

This is how me and bf's child will look like in the future!
Doesn't look like any of us though. xD

And just for fun, here's how me and limzai's baby will look like~
So chubby luhh omg. But this is lame laa, ah lim is a girl, in case anyone is wondering.
LOL.

^^
Seriously everyone should try this shit when you're free.
Quite interesting...

After a lot of hinting from my lecturers i suspect i might actually be able to pass me prac tests.
One day i'm might really use up all these good luck. -_-

Haha. But i'll enjoy while it lasts!~

Oh yaa there's this "assassin" guy running amok in yishun nowadays.
NEAR MY HOUSE THAT AREA SOME MORE.
Randomly stabbing women lor that asshole.

I'm scared to leave home now.
Is this a good enough excuse to be away from school? xD